*Okay so I hit a brick wall with CM right now but I'm trying to get it together so I decided to post on here and WTWC today ^_^ Hope this is ok! And thx so much for the comments on chapter 16! The posts I'm doing today are quite small but that's only for today I'mma start posting again as usual and try get some longer chapters in :))*
It was getting late and everyone could see that Nicki was tired as she lay pathetically into Safaree's side. Her parents along with Safaree's were stopping in the spare rooms and everyone else was leaving. In the space of thirty minutes every person had cleared out of the house.
"You want somethin' to eat before you go to bed?" Safaree couldn't help but smile at how Carol would talk to Nicki as if she was still a child living at home.
"No thanks, I ate like a truckload for lunch." She rubbed her stomach before taking a seat at the table. Her friends were the only non-family members still there, everybody was in the lounge room down the hall and as soon as Mama Carol left the kitchen it was just Nicki and Lauren. She could tell she wanted to leave but spoke up before she could make a move. "You okay Lauren?"
"I'm fine, I just need an early night." She smiled and rubbed Nicki's hand. "I think I'm gonna head off but I'll-"
"No, don't go yet!" she felt her small hand grip on to hers as she tried to stand. "I need to talk to you."
"What is it?" The curiosity on her face wasn't genuine as she returned to her seat. Nicki knew that she knew what she was going to ask her.
"What's goin' on with you? And don't even think about lyin' 'cause you already spun enough of those. I'm not stupid Lauren, there's somethin' up with you." She looked like a deer caught in the headlights but that expression changed as Safaree walked in, placing his hands on Nicki's shoulders as she took no notice of him. He kissed her head and carried on over to fridge, Lauren's eyes followed him all the way and Nicki didn't fail to notice. Turning her own head she looked at him and then back to Lauren, her gaze still hadn't broken. "What are you starin' at?" Her demanding voice made her tear away her eyes and look back at Nicki's face.
"I'm really fine Nic, don't stress yourself out. It ain't good for-"
"No, don't turn this back on me. I asked you if you were okay, now could you please answer me truthfully?" Safaree could feel the tension in the room and grabbed his plate of scraps before leaving quickly.
"I'm just goin' through some stuff right now, but it's fine. I'm gettin' through it."
"You don't have to just "get through it" though, y'know you can talk to us? Why didn't you say somethin'?"
"I can't talk about this, 'specially not with you." Nicki's face contorted as she gave her a look.
"The hell is that s'posed to mean?"
"Look at you! You got everythin' anyone could ever want. You wouldn't understand."
"Wait, if you're talkin' 'bout bein' famous and-"
"I'm not." She took a breath and started playing with her nails as she avoided making eye contact with her friend. "I mean your life right now, you and Safaree are gettin' things together. You're abouta have twins. I'on know I just want what you have and sometimes it's like you can't even see how blessed you are." She finished her heartfelt explanation and left Nicki sat there speechless.
"Don't think I'm not grateful for what I have, 'cause I am. Really, Safaree's the best thing to have ever happened to me!" She smiled as she spoke but Lauren's face remained the same. "You'll have all of this soon, hopefully more planned and thought out than the way I'm experiencin' it."
"That's the thing though, I won't. I can't." The sudden crack in Lauren's voice made Nicki frown and grab her hand.
"Sure you will, you're-"
"Nicki, you don't get it. I ca-" She cut herself off and huffed. "I can't."
"You can't what?" This was becoming more and more confusing to Nicki's already frazzled mind, she didn't know whether it was because Lauren was actually being confusing or if she was just tired after a relatively big day.
"I can't have kids Nicki."
***
"Just like that? That's all she said?" Safaree was removing his watch as he sat on the edge of the bed with Nicki laying behind him.
"Yeah." Her answer was followed by a deep sigh causing Safaree to turn and look at her.
"She can't be mad at you 'cause you can have babies though, that's just messed up."
"She's not mad with me Safaree, she's just..." Her thoughts cut into her sentence as she became quiet again. "I feel so bad that she felt like she couldn't speak to us, y'know?" SB was listening as he ripped the cover up and climbed in next to her.
"Wait, when did she find out 'bout all of this?"
"After you left. And there I was sat tellin' her how a got pregnant by accident. And with twins too." She slapped her hand on to her face and groaned. Lauren hadn't told her the whole story but she was more than cut up about the whole thing, especially having to watch one of her best friends experience all of this and not be able to ever know what it's like herself.
They lay together and talked for ages. By the time they actually got to sleep Nicki had been in tears about Lauren and tired herself out even more, leaving Safaree with his own thoughts. There was no doubt about it. He felt so bad for Lauren, even more when he thought about how much he was always going on about the twins, he was mentally kicking himself but couldn't carry on like that. How was he supposed to know what was wrong with her? Feeling Nicki stir next to him he sat up and peered over at her face, her brow was furrowed deeply. She had done this two nights ago and as soon as he started rubbing her back she became still again and her face relaxed. Sleep wasn't far away from him as he continued rubbing at her skin and before he knew it he was fast asleep too.
As the weeks passed by Nicki and Safaree were well on their way back to normal and they were taking things slowly in terms of her leaving the house. She didn't for a while but then whenever Safaree would head out to go get something she'd just ride with him in the car so she could leave the self-made prison. The word was out that she was pregnant and now everybody knew but she figured that would have to come out sooner or later. As for Drake he hadn't been heard from in a long while but he definitely wasn't forgotten. With his focus purely on the road Safaree kept the speed up as they headed across town to Rex's place, it was Candi's birthday and a couple of them they were going around to celebrate. They already decided before hand that they weren't staying too long, just a quick hello, happy birthday and goodbye.
"S'up with you?"
"Nothin'.
"Yeah, 'cause that's exactly what it seems like." He shook his head and carried on concentrating on the road whilst she just ignored his last comment and played mindlessly on her phone. Honestly she was already feeling uncomfortable with the thought of being around Lauren right now, she just wanted the night to be over so they could go home. Not to mention her new worry of going into labour at any moment. The rest of the short car journey was silent until they pulled up to a stop and he helped her out of the car. They just let themselves in and followed the noise of people people talking before they actually found them all in the back lounge room.
"Oh my God, is that Nicki? Actually outta the house?"
"Fuck you." Her dry response matched with a blank stare made Rex laugh as he walked over to them.
"Nah I'm just playin', they all through there." He gestured behind him and let her past before greeting Safaree.
The room went a little quiet as she walked in, mostly out of surprise that she'd even come out. The silence was temporary before Candi jumped up to see her. Embracing her in a hug she led her to the couch. Everything was going smoother than she thought after she'd wished her a happy birthday and gave her a gift, until TT started asking about baby names.
"How can you be ready to pop 'em out any time now and still not have come up with any names? That's the first thing I'd do!"
"I'on know, it's just somethin' we haven't really spoke about." She shrugged under their gaze and caught a glimpse of a very uncomfortable looking Lauren as she played with one of her bangles.
"You must have some ideas?" Now Candi was offering her input too, much to Nicki's annoyance. She wanted to keep the focus on the main reason they were here but it was all turning back on to her. She was glad the guys had all moved outside, the only reason being that they didn't want to smoke around her.
"I really don't though." She smiled before looking between their faces. "Anyway tonight isn't about me, it's your birthday."
"How kind of you to notice." The spiteful comment wasn't just noticed by Nicki as all three girls turned to look at Lauren's scathing face. TT was about to open her mouth but Thembi stopped her.
"How 'bout we get some birthday drinks goin' or somethin'? Orange juice for Nic of course. Come help me." Thembi nudged her before jumping up and moving through to the kitchen. There was silence once again as Nicki looked down at herself and Candi switched her eyes from her two friends.
"Okay, the hell is wrong with you two?" The anger was more than clear in her tone and facial expression as she spoke.
"What, you mean aside from her makin' everythin' about herself?"
"Lauren I'm tryin' to understand what you're goin' through, I really am! But you can't keep actin' like this with me, it ain't my fault!"
"What the hell are you two talkin' about?!"
"Look, I think I'm just gonna leave. I have an appointment early in the morning. Happy birthday Can." She stood up with a struggle and grabbed her purse. "Tell Safaree I'll be waitin' in the car." That was all she said before she left.
...
*Again, I'm sorry it's short but I did this one as well as CM and a sneak peek for WTWC today so I'll do some more tomorrow :)) Hope it was ok*
Wednesday 28 November 2012
Wednesday 14 November 2012
16. Diagnosis - Part Two
* I haven't updated this one in a while so here goes, the last chapter was really not good and I apologise! I'm trying to get it back on track though :) Hope this is ok!*
Safaree stood as soon as the Doctor entered, he had a bunch of files in his hand. Slipping them under his arm he shut the door behind himself. Nicki was still alseep, reminding them to keep their talking at a low volume.
"So what was it you needed to talk to me 'bout?" It was obvious how nervous he was feeling as he stared anxiously.
"Oh it's nothin' too serious but it is quite important."
"Is it the babies?"
"Please, sit down Mr Samuels and I'll explain everything." Safaree did as he was asked and resumed his seat by Nicki's bedside. The doctor did exactly as he said he would. Running through every aspect of what had happened to Nicki, reasons why it could have happened and everything Safaree could do in future to prevent it from happening again. SB caught himself feeling overwhelmed listening to all the signs and symptoms, some of them sounded terrifying. Then he moved on to another topic, her celebrity status. He discussed the fact that the added stress and pressure she was under from the public would probably have contributed greatly not to mention any traumatic experiences she's had. Safaree's mind swilled back to thoughts of Drake and everything he'd done to her. The guilt of leaving her would never leave him. Ever.
"Mr Samuels?" He looked up at the sound of his name.
"Sorry it's been a long day." Trailing his eyes back over Nicki's peaceful face he was glad he didn't have to see her go through any of that today. He would have preferred it if he was there for her but all the while he was just glad.
"I understand, I'll get the discharge papers sorted for you." He smiled kindly and turned to leave, stopping briskly in the door frame. "Oh and we'll try and minimise the amount of crowding outside when you leave."
"What?"
"Well, I assumed you knew that there was dozens of photographers outside." His brow furrowed confusedly as Safaree's face dropped. Now her secret was out.
"Aight, thanks." He nodded back at him and left.
Although the hospital security tried their up most to clear the hospital entry there was still people piled outside. Instinctively Safaree kept a firm hold on Nicki as they made their way out, he could feel her clutching on to him desperately as they tried to get into the truck. The driver didn't hesitate to get out and hold the door open for the pair of them, it took a while understandably since they were trying to pry themselves through all the people in the dark. Only temporary flashes of cameras illuminated the environment around them. He could hear some of them yelling to give them space to walk but they weren't listening. Finally reaching the vehicle he made sure to get her in first, she was still holding her jacket over her bump in attempt to conceal the view but she knew as well as him that they'd already got pictures. Climbing in next to her he slammed the door, not caring if anyones extremities were in his way.
"You good?" He watched over her as she sank back into the seat, nodding. This was ridiculous, he knew this was what they signed up for when she pursued this career but hounding her like that when she was pregnant and just suffered and anxiety attack? He didn't know how much longer he'd be able to stand this. What would happen when she had the twins?
"I know what you're thinkin'." His thoughts came to an immediate halt as he looked over at her. The car was moving now, thankfully leaving behind the incessant clicking and flashing of the paparazzi.
"You do?"
"Yeah, of course I do. It's written all over your face Safaree." She gave him a knowing smile before grabbing his hand. "Talk to me." He hesitated, wondering whether or not to tell her about the text from Drake. Ultimately deciding that she'd had enough to deal with for today he pushed the memory to the back of his mind.
"I was jus' thinkin' 'bout when you get further on with the pregnancy will they still be hasslin' you like that? Y'know? And what about when they're actually born they gonna be in talks 'bout who the Dad is and-"
"Safaree?"
"Yeah?"
"Shut up." She laughed as she said it and snuggled into his side as he smiled. "It'll be fine, and if they start askin' questions I'll just tell 'em who their Dad is."
"But you don't know who the Father is, could be Drake for all we know."
"Biologically he could be. But you're gonna be the one raisin' them. Feedin' them, changin' their diapers, teachin' them to walk and talk." She tilted her head up to look at him. "Either way, you're gonna be their real Father. No matter what."
"You mean that?"
"I wouldn't say it otherwise." She blinked lazily as he smiled down at her before relaxing back into the seat with her.
Before they knew it they were back at the house and obviously with it being close to 10pm they settled on having something quick to eat before going to sleep. Laying in bed his thoughts continued to spiral as she was resting comfortably into his side, her head resting on his outstretched arm.
"Safaree?" He jumped a little hearing her voice, he thought she was sleeping.
"Yeah?"
"Did you think Lauren was actin' weird today?" She kept facing the same direction until he turned his head to look at her.
"Didn't really notice, why?"
"Oh, I'on know, she just seemed really off. Like, almost mad but..." She trailed off in thought as she chewed gently on her lip. "I feel like I'm bein' so selfish."
"How are you bein' slefish? You've had a traumatic day. It ain't your fault."
"I know but even she said today-"
"She said you were actin' selfish?"
"No, lemme finish." She blinked slowly and began again after he shut his mouth. "She was talkin' sarcastically and told me she was sorry that they couldn't have their own problems to deal with."
"Oh and that made you feel selfish?"
"Yeah. Like, I've been too wrapped in my own shit that I haven't noticed that she's goin' through somethin'. You think she's okay?"
"Well you've had a lot to deal with Nic. Nobody is holdin' that against you. As for Lauren, I'm sure she's fine, she seemed okay with me but you could just give her a call tomorrow. Now, go to sleep 'cause I got a surprise for you in the mornin'." He kissed her one last time as they re-settled to go to sleep, but she still wasn't done.
"Wait, we're not-'
"No Nicki. We're not leavin' the house if you don't want to." He felt her relax again and snuggle back into him as he shook his head.
Amazingly they both got enough sleep that evening. Safaree thought he was going to be kept awake with her frequent waking during the night but she slept like a log the whole way through, in turn giving him a peaceful night's sleep too. Having already got up and performed his usual morning routine he was sat downstairs on the laptop. There was pictures all over the internet already, feeling himself becoming irked he slammed it shut.
"S'up with you?" She approached him from behind and ran her hands over his shoulders and down his chest as she got to be as close to him as her bump would let her.
"Nothin' that you should be worryin' 'bout." Clasping on to her hands he pulled her around on to the stool next to him. "I'm gon' make your food-"
"What about my surprise?"
"Well if you were patient enough I was just gettin' 'round to that, food first and then I'll get on to the surprise." He kissed her pouting face and moved over to the counter, making her food. Bringing his eyes up to stare at her he sighed seeing her scrolling down the endless articles on the laptop, he knew he should have moved it but she'd find out sooner or later.
"Do they really have nothin' better to do?" She let out a long sigh. "Whatever, I'm not gon' let it get to me. Not today." Slamming the piece of technology shut she slid it away from herself and sat her elbows on the table. "How long will the food be?"
"It's done." She spun around quickly hearing how close he was. Her excited face dropped as he placed a bowl of cut up fruit in front of her.
"Where's the actual food?"
"That's it. It's fruit, it's good for you." Throwing the tea towel over his shoulder he waited for her to eat it. "I'm not allowed what you had?"
"Nicki I had this too."
"How are you about to tell me that when your damn plate is still sat on the table?" He followed her eyes as they fell upon his plate which had previously been home to strips upon strips of turkey bacon along with the whole deal.
"Fine. Eat that, then I'll think about it." She rolled her eyes and started picking out the pieces she wanted to eat.
"So, what's my surprise?"
"Get your fruit, I'll show you." Holding his hand out for her she grabbed it with her free hand, her fruit bowl secured in the other. As they got closer to back of the house she could hear people talking, at first she thought it was on the TV but noticed it was turned off.
"Safaree-" She stopped dead when he opened the sliding door to the back yard, revealing the whole of both his and her families along with all their friends staring at them. "Oh my God! How did you-"
"That doesn't matter, they're here aren't they?" He kissed her before releasing her from his hold as she went to say hello to everyone. Honestly he'd been organising this for ages and was thankful that it all played out. Watching everyone stood around and sat at the tables he set out he smiled seeing Nicki with her Mom. He saw Lauren stood alone, she looked troubled to say the least. Making his way over to her she hadn't even noticed him slide up to her.
"Aye, s'goin on with you?" The question was asked out of genuine concern as he grabbed himself a steak off of the barbecue. Now he was glad that he'd set out paper plates, no cleaning up.
"I'on know what she's been tellin' you but I'm fine." She forced a weak smile and looked over at Nicki, she looked a lot calmer than yesterday. Truthfully that had really scared her and she was relieved to know she was okay for now.
"Nicki never said anythin'. It's obvious that there's somethin' botherin' you. What's up?" He was lying as he cut greedily into his steak, paying attention to her sadness at the same time.
"Please? Can we not do this here?" She looked down before throwing her empty paper plate into the trash bag next to them. "I'm just gon' go use your bathroom." Leaving before he had chance to speak another word he watched her disappear inside, Nicki was right she was acting out of character.
The day rolled on pleasantly until the biting cold of the evening weather forced them back indoors. Safaree was in shock about the fact that Nicki hadn't fallen asleep yet. Getting her alone in their bathroom he shut and locked the door behind him.
"Oh? So now you're following me to the bathroom?" She was just drying her hands as he moved closer to her, securing both of his hands on her hips.
"What, I'm not allowed to have you to myself for a lil' bit?" He smiled into her neck as he kissed and nipped at her skin starting something he definitely intended to finish, to which she happily complied.
Thankfully all the commotion downstairs drowned out her moans as he had her sat on the sink whilst he devoured her.
***
After kissing her deeply he wiped his mouth and let her down so she could put her panties back on.
"I'm never talkin' to you again if anyone heard us Safaree." Raising his brows at her smirking he tapped her on the ass as they left the bathroom. Nobody had heard them, at least that's what they thought. Sat in the bedroom next to theirs Lauren had heard everything as she fought to hold the tears back. She shook her head angrily and tried to force the tears away and when she finally succeeded she checked herself over before joining everyone else downstairs again.
*Hope this was alrightish, I was gonna do HIA tonight too and I already typed a bit but I can only post in between revision hours so I might post it tomorrow if I get chance :) Thanks for all the comments on chapter 15 ^___^*
Safaree stood as soon as the Doctor entered, he had a bunch of files in his hand. Slipping them under his arm he shut the door behind himself. Nicki was still alseep, reminding them to keep their talking at a low volume.
"So what was it you needed to talk to me 'bout?" It was obvious how nervous he was feeling as he stared anxiously.
"Oh it's nothin' too serious but it is quite important."
"Is it the babies?"
"Please, sit down Mr Samuels and I'll explain everything." Safaree did as he was asked and resumed his seat by Nicki's bedside. The doctor did exactly as he said he would. Running through every aspect of what had happened to Nicki, reasons why it could have happened and everything Safaree could do in future to prevent it from happening again. SB caught himself feeling overwhelmed listening to all the signs and symptoms, some of them sounded terrifying. Then he moved on to another topic, her celebrity status. He discussed the fact that the added stress and pressure she was under from the public would probably have contributed greatly not to mention any traumatic experiences she's had. Safaree's mind swilled back to thoughts of Drake and everything he'd done to her. The guilt of leaving her would never leave him. Ever.
"Mr Samuels?" He looked up at the sound of his name.
"Sorry it's been a long day." Trailing his eyes back over Nicki's peaceful face he was glad he didn't have to see her go through any of that today. He would have preferred it if he was there for her but all the while he was just glad.
"I understand, I'll get the discharge papers sorted for you." He smiled kindly and turned to leave, stopping briskly in the door frame. "Oh and we'll try and minimise the amount of crowding outside when you leave."
"What?"
"Well, I assumed you knew that there was dozens of photographers outside." His brow furrowed confusedly as Safaree's face dropped. Now her secret was out.
"Aight, thanks." He nodded back at him and left.
Although the hospital security tried their up most to clear the hospital entry there was still people piled outside. Instinctively Safaree kept a firm hold on Nicki as they made their way out, he could feel her clutching on to him desperately as they tried to get into the truck. The driver didn't hesitate to get out and hold the door open for the pair of them, it took a while understandably since they were trying to pry themselves through all the people in the dark. Only temporary flashes of cameras illuminated the environment around them. He could hear some of them yelling to give them space to walk but they weren't listening. Finally reaching the vehicle he made sure to get her in first, she was still holding her jacket over her bump in attempt to conceal the view but she knew as well as him that they'd already got pictures. Climbing in next to her he slammed the door, not caring if anyones extremities were in his way.
"You good?" He watched over her as she sank back into the seat, nodding. This was ridiculous, he knew this was what they signed up for when she pursued this career but hounding her like that when she was pregnant and just suffered and anxiety attack? He didn't know how much longer he'd be able to stand this. What would happen when she had the twins?
"I know what you're thinkin'." His thoughts came to an immediate halt as he looked over at her. The car was moving now, thankfully leaving behind the incessant clicking and flashing of the paparazzi.
"You do?"
"Yeah, of course I do. It's written all over your face Safaree." She gave him a knowing smile before grabbing his hand. "Talk to me." He hesitated, wondering whether or not to tell her about the text from Drake. Ultimately deciding that she'd had enough to deal with for today he pushed the memory to the back of his mind.
"I was jus' thinkin' 'bout when you get further on with the pregnancy will they still be hasslin' you like that? Y'know? And what about when they're actually born they gonna be in talks 'bout who the Dad is and-"
"Safaree?"
"Yeah?"
"Shut up." She laughed as she said it and snuggled into his side as he smiled. "It'll be fine, and if they start askin' questions I'll just tell 'em who their Dad is."
"But you don't know who the Father is, could be Drake for all we know."
"Biologically he could be. But you're gonna be the one raisin' them. Feedin' them, changin' their diapers, teachin' them to walk and talk." She tilted her head up to look at him. "Either way, you're gonna be their real Father. No matter what."
"You mean that?"
"I wouldn't say it otherwise." She blinked lazily as he smiled down at her before relaxing back into the seat with her.
Before they knew it they were back at the house and obviously with it being close to 10pm they settled on having something quick to eat before going to sleep. Laying in bed his thoughts continued to spiral as she was resting comfortably into his side, her head resting on his outstretched arm.
"Safaree?" He jumped a little hearing her voice, he thought she was sleeping.
"Yeah?"
"Did you think Lauren was actin' weird today?" She kept facing the same direction until he turned his head to look at her.
"Didn't really notice, why?"
"Oh, I'on know, she just seemed really off. Like, almost mad but..." She trailed off in thought as she chewed gently on her lip. "I feel like I'm bein' so selfish."
"How are you bein' slefish? You've had a traumatic day. It ain't your fault."
"I know but even she said today-"
"She said you were actin' selfish?"
"No, lemme finish." She blinked slowly and began again after he shut his mouth. "She was talkin' sarcastically and told me she was sorry that they couldn't have their own problems to deal with."
"Oh and that made you feel selfish?"
"Yeah. Like, I've been too wrapped in my own shit that I haven't noticed that she's goin' through somethin'. You think she's okay?"
"Well you've had a lot to deal with Nic. Nobody is holdin' that against you. As for Lauren, I'm sure she's fine, she seemed okay with me but you could just give her a call tomorrow. Now, go to sleep 'cause I got a surprise for you in the mornin'." He kissed her one last time as they re-settled to go to sleep, but she still wasn't done.
"Wait, we're not-'
"No Nicki. We're not leavin' the house if you don't want to." He felt her relax again and snuggle back into him as he shook his head.
Amazingly they both got enough sleep that evening. Safaree thought he was going to be kept awake with her frequent waking during the night but she slept like a log the whole way through, in turn giving him a peaceful night's sleep too. Having already got up and performed his usual morning routine he was sat downstairs on the laptop. There was pictures all over the internet already, feeling himself becoming irked he slammed it shut.
"S'up with you?" She approached him from behind and ran her hands over his shoulders and down his chest as she got to be as close to him as her bump would let her.
"Nothin' that you should be worryin' 'bout." Clasping on to her hands he pulled her around on to the stool next to him. "I'm gon' make your food-"
"What about my surprise?"
"Well if you were patient enough I was just gettin' 'round to that, food first and then I'll get on to the surprise." He kissed her pouting face and moved over to the counter, making her food. Bringing his eyes up to stare at her he sighed seeing her scrolling down the endless articles on the laptop, he knew he should have moved it but she'd find out sooner or later.
"Do they really have nothin' better to do?" She let out a long sigh. "Whatever, I'm not gon' let it get to me. Not today." Slamming the piece of technology shut she slid it away from herself and sat her elbows on the table. "How long will the food be?"
"It's done." She spun around quickly hearing how close he was. Her excited face dropped as he placed a bowl of cut up fruit in front of her.
"Where's the actual food?"
"That's it. It's fruit, it's good for you." Throwing the tea towel over his shoulder he waited for her to eat it. "I'm not allowed what you had?"
"Nicki I had this too."
"How are you about to tell me that when your damn plate is still sat on the table?" He followed her eyes as they fell upon his plate which had previously been home to strips upon strips of turkey bacon along with the whole deal.
"Fine. Eat that, then I'll think about it." She rolled her eyes and started picking out the pieces she wanted to eat.
"So, what's my surprise?"
"Get your fruit, I'll show you." Holding his hand out for her she grabbed it with her free hand, her fruit bowl secured in the other. As they got closer to back of the house she could hear people talking, at first she thought it was on the TV but noticed it was turned off.
"Safaree-" She stopped dead when he opened the sliding door to the back yard, revealing the whole of both his and her families along with all their friends staring at them. "Oh my God! How did you-"
"That doesn't matter, they're here aren't they?" He kissed her before releasing her from his hold as she went to say hello to everyone. Honestly he'd been organising this for ages and was thankful that it all played out. Watching everyone stood around and sat at the tables he set out he smiled seeing Nicki with her Mom. He saw Lauren stood alone, she looked troubled to say the least. Making his way over to her she hadn't even noticed him slide up to her.
"Aye, s'goin on with you?" The question was asked out of genuine concern as he grabbed himself a steak off of the barbecue. Now he was glad that he'd set out paper plates, no cleaning up.
"I'on know what she's been tellin' you but I'm fine." She forced a weak smile and looked over at Nicki, she looked a lot calmer than yesterday. Truthfully that had really scared her and she was relieved to know she was okay for now.
"Nicki never said anythin'. It's obvious that there's somethin' botherin' you. What's up?" He was lying as he cut greedily into his steak, paying attention to her sadness at the same time.
"Please? Can we not do this here?" She looked down before throwing her empty paper plate into the trash bag next to them. "I'm just gon' go use your bathroom." Leaving before he had chance to speak another word he watched her disappear inside, Nicki was right she was acting out of character.
The day rolled on pleasantly until the biting cold of the evening weather forced them back indoors. Safaree was in shock about the fact that Nicki hadn't fallen asleep yet. Getting her alone in their bathroom he shut and locked the door behind him.
"Oh? So now you're following me to the bathroom?" She was just drying her hands as he moved closer to her, securing both of his hands on her hips.
"What, I'm not allowed to have you to myself for a lil' bit?" He smiled into her neck as he kissed and nipped at her skin starting something he definitely intended to finish, to which she happily complied.
Thankfully all the commotion downstairs drowned out her moans as he had her sat on the sink whilst he devoured her.
***
After kissing her deeply he wiped his mouth and let her down so she could put her panties back on.
"I'm never talkin' to you again if anyone heard us Safaree." Raising his brows at her smirking he tapped her on the ass as they left the bathroom. Nobody had heard them, at least that's what they thought. Sat in the bedroom next to theirs Lauren had heard everything as she fought to hold the tears back. She shook her head angrily and tried to force the tears away and when she finally succeeded she checked herself over before joining everyone else downstairs again.
*Hope this was alrightish, I was gonna do HIA tonight too and I already typed a bit but I can only post in between revision hours so I might post it tomorrow if I get chance :) Thanks for all the comments on chapter 15 ^___^*
Thursday 1 November 2012
15. Diagnosis - Part One
*Okay I officially do not like this chapter after writing it FOUR times! Yes that's right I wrote it four times and got angry before posting it as it is >:( Moving right aloooong, hope this is ok for everyone It's a little rushed and short and Im sorry but I'll give myself more time for the next one I promise it will be better!!*
After he watched them leave he felt the anger consume him. How the hell was Drake about to text Nicki asking her to meet up with him? After everything he'd done to her, everything he was still doing to her. He'd been woken multiple times last night with her crying out in her sleep but he would just pull her trembling body to him and hold her until she drifted off again. He didn't know what else to do. Grabbing his keys and phone he headed out. He needed some time to forget all his troubles and be with his friends too just like Nicki was right now.
***
Their car ride was awkwardly quiet as Nicki just looked at her nails and Candi played on her phone in the back whilst Lauren kept her face on scowl as she drove them. That was another thing, Nicki wanted a driver to take them in one of the cars but Lauren deemed that idea ridiculous if she wanted to keep a low profile. Especially since they'd gone against Safaree's orders of taking some form of security with them.
"I ain't sittin in the back on the way home, just sayin'." Feeling her temper flare Lauren tried to keep a lid on it but when Nicki responded equally as childishly as Candi she felt as though she was about to flip if another word left either one of their mouths.
"I get motion sickness Candi, fuck outta here wantin' the fat pregnant lady to sit in the back and be throwin' her goddamn intestines up!" Candi rolled her eyes and looked out of the window as Lauren exhaled shakily and ran her hands over her face. They were stuck in traffic, sat silently.
"Stop it."
What?" Nicki looked at Lauren confusedly.
"Your foot. Stop tappin' it like that. It's annoyin' as fuck." Looking down she realised that she'd been absent mindedly tapping her foot on the side of the car door. Stopping immediately she widened her eyes and looked out of the window too after sighing. This horrible feeling she had wouldn't go away, it was heavy on her mind as she felt her hands trembling. They reached the mall in silence and honestly the only one who was completely unaffected by Lauren's mood was Candi. Who carried on acting as normal as they strolled in. Nicki kept her shades on as she felt her heart thumping, she had no idea why she was freaking out so much about leaving the house but she'd been having eerie feelings. She figured it was probably nothing or if anything just her acting strange because she was pregnant. Luckily nobody knew she was carrying, it made her more difficult to identify.
"Why'd you bring me here?" She huffed as they walked around.
"Oh my God, Nicki if you really don't wanna be here then just go wait in the fuckin' car!" Angrily looking through her bag Lauren searched for the keys.
"By myself?" She laughed dryly."Yeah, like that's gon' happen!" As Candi roamed off after rolling her eyes at a snappy Lauren Nicki stood by her aggravated friend. "The fuck is wrong with you today?"
"Nothin'." Pulling her purse over her shoulder some more she looked at Nicki's face which showed that she knew she was lying. "Really, it's nothin'. Now can we please get on with this, get what you need and get you home before SB thinks we got yo' ass kidnapped or somethin'?"
"Ion believe you but I'll figure it out. Right now though, I want a smoothie so let's go." She shook her head and followed behind Nicki as they caught up with Candi again.
They'd been walking around aimlessly for ages after getting smoothies and amongst a few giggles Nicki still couldn't shake that weird feeling. On top of that all the walking had made her feel tired and achy.
"Can we please sit down?" Lauren looked back at her fed up friend and agreed as she watched her trying to stretch her back out. She'd been really quiet actually, and honestly she had expected more whining to have occurred.
"Yeah, you wanna go eat?"
"Oh my God! Yes!"
"Shit, you act like you've never been fed before!" Candi cackled as they headed over to the food court, luckily it wasn't very busy.
"I'm eating for three." She looked her dead in the eye as they walked and held up three fingers just to make her point clear.
"Whatever. Where d'you wanna eat?"
"Somewhere away from everyone." She scanned her eyes across her surroundings and jumped slightly when a store worker nearby accidentally knocked off a shelf of items.
"Well, we're in a food court so, there are people everywhere and why you actin' mad jumpy and shit?" Throwing her empty smoothie cup into the trash Lauren fixed her eyes on Nicki waiting for an answer.
"I'm not."
"Uhm, yes you are!"
"Whilst you two argue 'bout that I'm gon' get me some food." Walking off ahead she left Nicki and Lauren to sit down. They were both moody and quite frankly pulling her into a depressive state too. Sitting in silence Lauren kept her focus on Nicki as she kept checking her phone and bouncing her knee.
"Aight, what is up with you?" Bringing her head up she stayed still.
"Me? I could ask you the same freakin' question! You been actin' so bitchy all day! Anyone would think you're the one that was fucking pregnant!" She had no idea where that outburst came from and immediately regretted opening her mouth. After staying silent almost all day she felt drained, tired and now after her angry explosion she felt as though she was on the verge of tears. This was the part of pregnancy that she hated, for no reason she felt like she hated everyone around her and they were purposely trying to annoy her. She loved her friends but was in no mood to be in their company right now.
"Wow, I didn't realise we couldn't have our own problems to deal with, I'm sorry." She placed her hand on her chest as she spoke sarcastically.
"Lauren-"
"No, don't talk to me. Ion wanna hear your mouth right now." Rubbing her temples she took herself some painkillers out and took them with her water. She gave Nicki a look again.
"Now what?"
"Stop bouncing your leg like that, you look like a nervous wreck." She hadn't realised what she was doing as she stopped her limb from moving. Suddenly feeling really warm she pulled at the scarf that was around her neck as she fanned herself.
"I don't feel right." Lauren looked up momentarily as she heard her trembling voice.
"You kay Nic?" She let her eyes wander over her shaky hands and flushed face. "Nicki?" She didn't answer as she stood up swiftly, she had no idea what was happening as she tried to breathe.
"No, no I feel like I'm gonna pass out." She squeezed her eyes shut and used the table to steady herself as Lauren stood up too, looking more and more concerned by the second by her friend's strange behaviour.
"Is it the babies?"
"Ion know." She paused and looked at Lauren pleadingly. "Please can we just go?" Grabbing at her chest she tried to steady her breathing but the more she tried the worse it got and people were starting to stare. As her shaking became more visible Lauren felt her stomach drop, this could be serious.
"Shit Nicki, you're really scarin' me! I'm callin' an ambulance!" she did as she said she would and dialled as Candi neared them with her McDonald's bag in her hand.
"Are you okay ma'am?" An older man asked worriedly seeing a pregnant woman in such a distressed state, she'd sat back down again and was still trying to stop herself from breathing so fast and deep.
"Oh my God, what's happening?" Candi rushed over to the seat next to Nicki and held her hand as the man pulled the brown bag from her grasp and emptied the contents.
"Here, breathe into this, I think you're hyperventilating." As Lauren spoke on the phone Candi helped Nicki hold the bag to her face and the stranger coached her through her breathing, hoping it would have the desired outcome. They watched Nicki as she shut her eyes, allowing the tears that were forming to fall down her face as she struggled to control the rapid rising and falling of her chest.
***
Sitting with the Vaks he'd been more reserved than usual, stuck in his thoughts about the whole Nicki and Drake situation. What if he hadn't deleted the text? Would she have agreed to see him? He answered his own question as he shook his head, she wouldn't do that. Not after the way he treated her, no way. Popping another chip into his mouth he saw Rex staring at him.
"You aight?"
"Yeah, I'm good. Sleepless nights that's all." He re-adjusted his hat and stood up. "Well, Imma make a move now I was gon' take Nicki out to eat but I have a feelin' she ain't gonna want to leave the damn house." As he was about to head out his phone vibrated in his hand, looking down he saw it was Lauren. He'd missed three calls from her and as he opened her text he didn't hesitate in leaving immediately.
Pulling up to the hospital he parked way out of the lines and darted straight to the front desk. After asking quite rudely the lady pointed him in the right direction. Exiting the elevator he saw Candi and Lauren sat outside looking worried.
"What's happened? Is she ok?" He was talking a mile a minute as Lauren stood to talk.
"We don't know yet, the doctor-" Before she could go on she was interrupted by the man himself.
"Safaree?"
"Yeah thas me, is she ok? Can we see her?"
"Yes, yes just a moment. I wanna explain some things first and then you can go see her. She's been askin' for you." He smiled which reassured them that there was no bad news.
"Well what's wrong with her?" Candi crossed her arms across herself nervously as the doctor moved his eyes across the three of them.
"Nicki appears to have suffered an anxiety attack, which accounts for the hyperventilation, trembling, heart palpitations and all the rest."
"An anxiety attack? I didn't even know she was suffering from anxiety!" Lauren cupped her hand over her mouth feeling awful for having made Nicki leave the house when she didn't want to. Obviously it was being out in the mall that had set her off.
"A lot of people don't until the first attack, but with Nicki it could be a number of things. I'll talk about that later with you alone Mr Samuels. I'll let you go see her now, she's fine. A little tired but she and the babies are fine." He flashed them a smile and patted Safaree reassuringly before going around them and heading toward his next patient.
As they entered her room they saw her laying sleepily on her side. He was right, she looked exhausted.
"Hey, how are you feelin'?" Each taking a seat Lauren asked guiltily as she looked over her.
"Sleepy." She pulled her eyes away from Lauren as Safaree walked over to kiss her. They both let him take the seat closest.
"I'm so sorry for makin' you go out. I had no idea, why didn't you tell me?" He held her hand supportively as he sat down.
"Honestly? I didn't know either I just felt weird." She sighed quietly before feeling herself dropping to sleep. He stayed there, holding her hand until she properly asleep again. Candi and Lauren left at around 7pm and Safaree was sat wondering why they were still in the hospital, surely if they were fine then the could leave. Just as he was about to stand up he heard the door open as the doctor walked back in.
* I hope this was alrightish, excuse any medical errors, I am no doctor although I do have experience with Social Anxiety Disorder since I suffer from it so some of it should be similar! Lmao, thx for all ur comments on the previous chapter I cried at how mad you all were with the cliffhanger XD My next chap will be less rushed and more mentally planned!*
After he watched them leave he felt the anger consume him. How the hell was Drake about to text Nicki asking her to meet up with him? After everything he'd done to her, everything he was still doing to her. He'd been woken multiple times last night with her crying out in her sleep but he would just pull her trembling body to him and hold her until she drifted off again. He didn't know what else to do. Grabbing his keys and phone he headed out. He needed some time to forget all his troubles and be with his friends too just like Nicki was right now.
***
Their car ride was awkwardly quiet as Nicki just looked at her nails and Candi played on her phone in the back whilst Lauren kept her face on scowl as she drove them. That was another thing, Nicki wanted a driver to take them in one of the cars but Lauren deemed that idea ridiculous if she wanted to keep a low profile. Especially since they'd gone against Safaree's orders of taking some form of security with them.
"I ain't sittin in the back on the way home, just sayin'." Feeling her temper flare Lauren tried to keep a lid on it but when Nicki responded equally as childishly as Candi she felt as though she was about to flip if another word left either one of their mouths.
"I get motion sickness Candi, fuck outta here wantin' the fat pregnant lady to sit in the back and be throwin' her goddamn intestines up!" Candi rolled her eyes and looked out of the window as Lauren exhaled shakily and ran her hands over her face. They were stuck in traffic, sat silently.
"Stop it."
What?" Nicki looked at Lauren confusedly.
"Your foot. Stop tappin' it like that. It's annoyin' as fuck." Looking down she realised that she'd been absent mindedly tapping her foot on the side of the car door. Stopping immediately she widened her eyes and looked out of the window too after sighing. This horrible feeling she had wouldn't go away, it was heavy on her mind as she felt her hands trembling. They reached the mall in silence and honestly the only one who was completely unaffected by Lauren's mood was Candi. Who carried on acting as normal as they strolled in. Nicki kept her shades on as she felt her heart thumping, she had no idea why she was freaking out so much about leaving the house but she'd been having eerie feelings. She figured it was probably nothing or if anything just her acting strange because she was pregnant. Luckily nobody knew she was carrying, it made her more difficult to identify.
"Why'd you bring me here?" She huffed as they walked around.
"Oh my God, Nicki if you really don't wanna be here then just go wait in the fuckin' car!" Angrily looking through her bag Lauren searched for the keys.
"By myself?" She laughed dryly."Yeah, like that's gon' happen!" As Candi roamed off after rolling her eyes at a snappy Lauren Nicki stood by her aggravated friend. "The fuck is wrong with you today?"
"Nothin'." Pulling her purse over her shoulder some more she looked at Nicki's face which showed that she knew she was lying. "Really, it's nothin'. Now can we please get on with this, get what you need and get you home before SB thinks we got yo' ass kidnapped or somethin'?"
"Ion believe you but I'll figure it out. Right now though, I want a smoothie so let's go." She shook her head and followed behind Nicki as they caught up with Candi again.
They'd been walking around aimlessly for ages after getting smoothies and amongst a few giggles Nicki still couldn't shake that weird feeling. On top of that all the walking had made her feel tired and achy.
"Can we please sit down?" Lauren looked back at her fed up friend and agreed as she watched her trying to stretch her back out. She'd been really quiet actually, and honestly she had expected more whining to have occurred.
"Yeah, you wanna go eat?"
"Oh my God! Yes!"
"Shit, you act like you've never been fed before!" Candi cackled as they headed over to the food court, luckily it wasn't very busy.
"I'm eating for three." She looked her dead in the eye as they walked and held up three fingers just to make her point clear.
"Whatever. Where d'you wanna eat?"
"Somewhere away from everyone." She scanned her eyes across her surroundings and jumped slightly when a store worker nearby accidentally knocked off a shelf of items.
"Well, we're in a food court so, there are people everywhere and why you actin' mad jumpy and shit?" Throwing her empty smoothie cup into the trash Lauren fixed her eyes on Nicki waiting for an answer.
"I'm not."
"Uhm, yes you are!"
"Whilst you two argue 'bout that I'm gon' get me some food." Walking off ahead she left Nicki and Lauren to sit down. They were both moody and quite frankly pulling her into a depressive state too. Sitting in silence Lauren kept her focus on Nicki as she kept checking her phone and bouncing her knee.
"Aight, what is up with you?" Bringing her head up she stayed still.
"Me? I could ask you the same freakin' question! You been actin' so bitchy all day! Anyone would think you're the one that was fucking pregnant!" She had no idea where that outburst came from and immediately regretted opening her mouth. After staying silent almost all day she felt drained, tired and now after her angry explosion she felt as though she was on the verge of tears. This was the part of pregnancy that she hated, for no reason she felt like she hated everyone around her and they were purposely trying to annoy her. She loved her friends but was in no mood to be in their company right now.
"Wow, I didn't realise we couldn't have our own problems to deal with, I'm sorry." She placed her hand on her chest as she spoke sarcastically.
"Lauren-"
"No, don't talk to me. Ion wanna hear your mouth right now." Rubbing her temples she took herself some painkillers out and took them with her water. She gave Nicki a look again.
"Now what?"
"Stop bouncing your leg like that, you look like a nervous wreck." She hadn't realised what she was doing as she stopped her limb from moving. Suddenly feeling really warm she pulled at the scarf that was around her neck as she fanned herself.
"I don't feel right." Lauren looked up momentarily as she heard her trembling voice.
"You kay Nic?" She let her eyes wander over her shaky hands and flushed face. "Nicki?" She didn't answer as she stood up swiftly, she had no idea what was happening as she tried to breathe.
"No, no I feel like I'm gonna pass out." She squeezed her eyes shut and used the table to steady herself as Lauren stood up too, looking more and more concerned by the second by her friend's strange behaviour.
"Is it the babies?"
"Ion know." She paused and looked at Lauren pleadingly. "Please can we just go?" Grabbing at her chest she tried to steady her breathing but the more she tried the worse it got and people were starting to stare. As her shaking became more visible Lauren felt her stomach drop, this could be serious.
"Shit Nicki, you're really scarin' me! I'm callin' an ambulance!" she did as she said she would and dialled as Candi neared them with her McDonald's bag in her hand.
"Are you okay ma'am?" An older man asked worriedly seeing a pregnant woman in such a distressed state, she'd sat back down again and was still trying to stop herself from breathing so fast and deep.
"Oh my God, what's happening?" Candi rushed over to the seat next to Nicki and held her hand as the man pulled the brown bag from her grasp and emptied the contents.
"Here, breathe into this, I think you're hyperventilating." As Lauren spoke on the phone Candi helped Nicki hold the bag to her face and the stranger coached her through her breathing, hoping it would have the desired outcome. They watched Nicki as she shut her eyes, allowing the tears that were forming to fall down her face as she struggled to control the rapid rising and falling of her chest.
***
Sitting with the Vaks he'd been more reserved than usual, stuck in his thoughts about the whole Nicki and Drake situation. What if he hadn't deleted the text? Would she have agreed to see him? He answered his own question as he shook his head, she wouldn't do that. Not after the way he treated her, no way. Popping another chip into his mouth he saw Rex staring at him.
"You aight?"
"Yeah, I'm good. Sleepless nights that's all." He re-adjusted his hat and stood up. "Well, Imma make a move now I was gon' take Nicki out to eat but I have a feelin' she ain't gonna want to leave the damn house." As he was about to head out his phone vibrated in his hand, looking down he saw it was Lauren. He'd missed three calls from her and as he opened her text he didn't hesitate in leaving immediately.
Pulling up to the hospital he parked way out of the lines and darted straight to the front desk. After asking quite rudely the lady pointed him in the right direction. Exiting the elevator he saw Candi and Lauren sat outside looking worried.
"What's happened? Is she ok?" He was talking a mile a minute as Lauren stood to talk.
"We don't know yet, the doctor-" Before she could go on she was interrupted by the man himself.
"Safaree?"
"Yeah thas me, is she ok? Can we see her?"
"Yes, yes just a moment. I wanna explain some things first and then you can go see her. She's been askin' for you." He smiled which reassured them that there was no bad news.
"Well what's wrong with her?" Candi crossed her arms across herself nervously as the doctor moved his eyes across the three of them.
"Nicki appears to have suffered an anxiety attack, which accounts for the hyperventilation, trembling, heart palpitations and all the rest."
"An anxiety attack? I didn't even know she was suffering from anxiety!" Lauren cupped her hand over her mouth feeling awful for having made Nicki leave the house when she didn't want to. Obviously it was being out in the mall that had set her off.
"A lot of people don't until the first attack, but with Nicki it could be a number of things. I'll talk about that later with you alone Mr Samuels. I'll let you go see her now, she's fine. A little tired but she and the babies are fine." He flashed them a smile and patted Safaree reassuringly before going around them and heading toward his next patient.
As they entered her room they saw her laying sleepily on her side. He was right, she looked exhausted.
"Hey, how are you feelin'?" Each taking a seat Lauren asked guiltily as she looked over her.
"Sleepy." She pulled her eyes away from Lauren as Safaree walked over to kiss her. They both let him take the seat closest.
"I'm so sorry for makin' you go out. I had no idea, why didn't you tell me?" He held her hand supportively as he sat down.
"Honestly? I didn't know either I just felt weird." She sighed quietly before feeling herself dropping to sleep. He stayed there, holding her hand until she properly asleep again. Candi and Lauren left at around 7pm and Safaree was sat wondering why they were still in the hospital, surely if they were fine then the could leave. Just as he was about to stand up he heard the door open as the doctor walked back in.
* I hope this was alrightish, excuse any medical errors, I am no doctor although I do have experience with Social Anxiety Disorder since I suffer from it so some of it should be similar! Lmao, thx for all ur comments on the previous chapter I cried at how mad you all were with the cliffhanger XD My next chap will be less rushed and more mentally planned!*
Wednesday 24 October 2012
14. Back To Normality
* Okay kids! Massive ass apology first! I'm sorry I've been neglecting this one a lil bit but I'm posting now so it's all good! Also some of you may have noticed that there is a link on all of my blogs for Cassie's Dricki Blogs, I know most of you are Onikafaree fans but some ppl read Dricki fics too, so if you're one of those ppl I believe she just posted her first chapter on Sweet Dreams so check it out of you can, I've heard she is a good writer and she's sweetly displaying my blog links on her fics too ^_^ Kay Imma stop waffling on now!! Enjoy!*
As he slowly blinked his eyes open her reached over to touch Nicki laying next to him but she wasn't there. Sitting up some more her scanned his eyes around the room, she was nowhere in sight. Before he had chance to throw the covers back he heard the TV downstairs and looked over at his phone. It was 5am.
"The fuck's she doin' up this damn early?" Rubbing his eyes he let his legs fall out the side of the bed and stayed there for a minute before heading downstairs. Surely enough there she was. Looking like she was wrapped in some sort of cocoon sat in the dark with her pink blanket draped around her, only inches away from the TV screen. Walking over slowly and quietly he placed his hands on her shoulders causing her to scream out and spill her bowl of cranberries everywhere.
"Safaree! The fuck?! I almost peed myself you asshole!"
"Shit, I ain't mean to scare you that bad. Maybe if you sat further away from the freakin' speakers you woulda heard me! Why you sat so close anyhow? You gon' get square eyes." He took a seat on the floor next to her as she tried to regain her breath. He felt a little bad seeing how much he'd actually made her jump.
"I wasn't sleepy and I didn't wanna wake you up." She looked at him sweetly as she popped another cranberry into her mouth.
"You know yo' ass is gon' be sleep again by ten don't you?" He looked at her knowingly as she frowned.
"Uhm, no I won't. 'Sides, so what if I am? The babies like sleepin'." Placing her free hand on her bump she massaged it lovingly, still eating her cranberries.
"Oh? Well they better keep on likin' it when they're born too. I ain't doin' no midnight diaper changin' sessions!"
"What? So you'll let me do all that when I'm the one that has to carry 'em 'round for nine months, feed 'em AND give birth to them?" Pausing with her snacking she looked at him expectantly.
"well when you put it like that-"
"Exactly. So that's cleared up then. You're doin' diapers." Licking her fingers she sat forward and stood herself up. "I'm goin' for a shower. Could you please make me some-"
"Pancakes?" She grinned widely at him knowing what she wanted.
"Thank you Faree." Kissing him gently she tightened the blanket around herself and shuffled back upstairs as he watched, shaking his head.
***
Setting them both some pancakes on to plates he whisked them over to the table and placed the cutlery next to them. Nicki was still showering as he waited in the kitchen for her. Slowly losing his patience he decided to head upstairs and see what was taking her so long. He knew it, walking into their room what else does he see but Nicki fast asleep in the centre of the bed. He chuckled softly to himself and rearranged her blanket over her.
"Told her so." He sat with her for a bit before deciding on a time to wake her up since he wasn't sure when Lauren and Candi were coming over. Once that was done he headed back downstairs to eat his own pancakes, throwing hers away. If she wanted more later then he'd happily make her some. After texting Lauren and finding out what time they were coming to get Nicki he went back upstairs to shower and all that good stuff. They were going to drop around at about midday and then take her out which gave her two hours to get ready if he woke her at 10am.
The girls stuck to their word about coming over but they came a lot earlier than he expected and understandably Nicki was still laying in the middle of their bed.
"Hellooooo?" Candi threw her shades on to the side table as they let themselves in.
"Why d'you do that?"
"what?"
"Add way too many O's on to the end of your 'hello'?" Lauren curled her lip as she shut the door. Candi had been irritating her all the way in the car and honestly she felt as though she was close to kicking out of the damn vehicle. "And besides, she could be sleepin' so keep your mouth zipped, hear me?" Candi rolled her eyes and headed in to the living room, then the kitchen and then back again.
"Must be upstairs."
Once they made it upstairs Lauren headed in the direction in which she heard music playing, it was coming from Safaree's room as he was just getting dressed after his shower. But she stopped hearing Candi's hushed whisper.
"Lauren! Come look at this mess!" She stifled her giggles as she stood in Nicki's doorway staring at her. She was curled up on the bed, her pink blanket still layering her body.
"Awww! She's too cute, let's go get a picture 'fore she wakes up." Silently agreeing they cautiously entered and climbed on to the bed with their friend. She didn't stir as they snapped a few pics on their phones.
"Ew, that is so weird! Did you see that?" Candi's face looked horrified as she stared down at Nicki.
Lauren peered over before talking. "What?"
"Look!" She whispered and pointed at Nicki's bump as one of the babies moved.
"Oh my god, can't she feel that?" Lauren asked as Candi gently poked at Nicki's stomach. Neither of them knew Safaree was watching in amusement from the doorway.
"Y'all havin' fun over there?" Jumping at his voice they both snapped their heads around quickly, in turn making the bed wobble and waking Nicki up.
"Ughh, why are y'all sat starin' at me when I'm sleepin'? Weirdos." Laughing at her not even opening her eyes to speak they pulled her blanket off of her.
"'Cause we love watchin' you sleep, you look cute. Now come on, we're goin' out so get'cho ass outta bed Onika."
"No." Still laying looking sleepy she waited out the silence before blinking her eyes open slowly. "Safaree, make 'em leave? Please? Ion wanna go out, I'm tired."
"I'm not helpin' you this time Nic, you need to get outta the house. You're gonna rot away in here, 'sides I thought you said you needed maternity clothes?"
"I do but there's this new thing called online shopping, Ion know if any of y'all have heard of that but it's pretty damn handy."
"Aight, I'm not really likin' pregnant Nika right now. She's lazy as fuck." Holding eye contact with Lauren, Candi folded her lips after speaking before switching her eyes back to Nicki as she moved from her side and on to her back.
"Oh? Hows about you carry two babies inside of you and then see if you skippin' around bein' all energetic and shit."
"Nicki, get up. We'll be waitin' downstairs and you've got exactly thirty minutes." Leaving her laying there they all filed out and headed downstairs. Hearing her groaning in a tantrum-like manner after they'd gone.
"Wow, you guys are gon' have fun with her today!"
"SB, don't even!" He could tell Lauren was riled about something but didn't want to press her so toned down his jokes as he shared a look with Candi.
Flopping gracefully on to the couch she ignored Lauren's huffing and faced Safaree. "Anyways, s'been goin' on SB?"
He shrugged before remembering the text Nicki got from Drake last night, but he decided not to say anything. "Nothin'." I been playin' housewife and Nicki's done nothin' but sleep forever."
"Yeah, is that even normal?" She raised her brow slightly and watched Safaree's face scrunch up.
"Ion know, I was readin-"
"Wait! SB, reading? Wow, you really are serious 'bout this huh?"
"Candi we're talkin' 'bout the woman I love and my possible kids here? Of course I'm serious!" He sat back and tilted his a hat a little.
"My bad, sorry I asked." She rolled her eyes playfully. "But really though, I'm happy for y'all and it's about freaking time too!"
Almost thirty minutes later a furious looking Nicki appeared at the bottom of the stairs. "Kay, I'm ready are we goin' or what?" They all shared a exchange of glances as she grumpily shoved her shades on and threw her bag over her shoulder.
"Oh, so you're not gon' say goodbye?" He walked over with his arms outstretched as she stood sulking.
"No. You're forcing me to leave the comfort of my own home. I'm mad with you."
Feeling his arms wrap around her from behind and rest over her bump she tried hard to stop the smile from spreading across her face. "You still mad?"
"No."
"But?"
"But pleeaaase don't make me go? I really, really, really don't want to Faree." Hearing them both whispering Candi and Lauren interrupted them, instantly knowing what Nicki was probably doing.
"Aight! Lets go!" Gently grabbing and arm each the dragged a reluctant Nicki out of the door, letting Safaree peck her lips quickly.
Not one of them had stopped to think of any reasons why she might not want to go out though...
dun, dun, duuuuuun >:)
*It's a liiiiiiittle short, I know AND I typed a majority of this in one of my psychology lectures BUT don't worry and don't yell at me it was the last lecture of the term and I'm re-watching them before exams anyways ^_^ so it's allllll good :) But you got this chap and tmrw I'm gonna be typing like a crazy bitch cuz I'm doing CM, WTWC and FY :)) I'm rethinking my decision to completely end FY cuz I had a few DM's about it and ppl wanted it updating soo....Imma sleep on that :) OH and more drama with the next chap for this fic ^__^ Thx for all ur previous comments too! x *
As he slowly blinked his eyes open her reached over to touch Nicki laying next to him but she wasn't there. Sitting up some more her scanned his eyes around the room, she was nowhere in sight. Before he had chance to throw the covers back he heard the TV downstairs and looked over at his phone. It was 5am.
"The fuck's she doin' up this damn early?" Rubbing his eyes he let his legs fall out the side of the bed and stayed there for a minute before heading downstairs. Surely enough there she was. Looking like she was wrapped in some sort of cocoon sat in the dark with her pink blanket draped around her, only inches away from the TV screen. Walking over slowly and quietly he placed his hands on her shoulders causing her to scream out and spill her bowl of cranberries everywhere.
"Safaree! The fuck?! I almost peed myself you asshole!"
"Shit, I ain't mean to scare you that bad. Maybe if you sat further away from the freakin' speakers you woulda heard me! Why you sat so close anyhow? You gon' get square eyes." He took a seat on the floor next to her as she tried to regain her breath. He felt a little bad seeing how much he'd actually made her jump.
"I wasn't sleepy and I didn't wanna wake you up." She looked at him sweetly as she popped another cranberry into her mouth.
"You know yo' ass is gon' be sleep again by ten don't you?" He looked at her knowingly as she frowned.
"Uhm, no I won't. 'Sides, so what if I am? The babies like sleepin'." Placing her free hand on her bump she massaged it lovingly, still eating her cranberries.
"Oh? Well they better keep on likin' it when they're born too. I ain't doin' no midnight diaper changin' sessions!"
"What? So you'll let me do all that when I'm the one that has to carry 'em 'round for nine months, feed 'em AND give birth to them?" Pausing with her snacking she looked at him expectantly.
"well when you put it like that-"
"Exactly. So that's cleared up then. You're doin' diapers." Licking her fingers she sat forward and stood herself up. "I'm goin' for a shower. Could you please make me some-"
"Pancakes?" She grinned widely at him knowing what she wanted.
"Thank you Faree." Kissing him gently she tightened the blanket around herself and shuffled back upstairs as he watched, shaking his head.
***
Setting them both some pancakes on to plates he whisked them over to the table and placed the cutlery next to them. Nicki was still showering as he waited in the kitchen for her. Slowly losing his patience he decided to head upstairs and see what was taking her so long. He knew it, walking into their room what else does he see but Nicki fast asleep in the centre of the bed. He chuckled softly to himself and rearranged her blanket over her.
"Told her so." He sat with her for a bit before deciding on a time to wake her up since he wasn't sure when Lauren and Candi were coming over. Once that was done he headed back downstairs to eat his own pancakes, throwing hers away. If she wanted more later then he'd happily make her some. After texting Lauren and finding out what time they were coming to get Nicki he went back upstairs to shower and all that good stuff. They were going to drop around at about midday and then take her out which gave her two hours to get ready if he woke her at 10am.
The girls stuck to their word about coming over but they came a lot earlier than he expected and understandably Nicki was still laying in the middle of their bed.
"Hellooooo?" Candi threw her shades on to the side table as they let themselves in.
"Why d'you do that?"
"what?"
"Add way too many O's on to the end of your 'hello'?" Lauren curled her lip as she shut the door. Candi had been irritating her all the way in the car and honestly she felt as though she was close to kicking out of the damn vehicle. "And besides, she could be sleepin' so keep your mouth zipped, hear me?" Candi rolled her eyes and headed in to the living room, then the kitchen and then back again.
"Must be upstairs."
Once they made it upstairs Lauren headed in the direction in which she heard music playing, it was coming from Safaree's room as he was just getting dressed after his shower. But she stopped hearing Candi's hushed whisper.
"Lauren! Come look at this mess!" She stifled her giggles as she stood in Nicki's doorway staring at her. She was curled up on the bed, her pink blanket still layering her body.
"Awww! She's too cute, let's go get a picture 'fore she wakes up." Silently agreeing they cautiously entered and climbed on to the bed with their friend. She didn't stir as they snapped a few pics on their phones.
"Ew, that is so weird! Did you see that?" Candi's face looked horrified as she stared down at Nicki.
Lauren peered over before talking. "What?"
"Look!" She whispered and pointed at Nicki's bump as one of the babies moved.
"Oh my god, can't she feel that?" Lauren asked as Candi gently poked at Nicki's stomach. Neither of them knew Safaree was watching in amusement from the doorway.
"Y'all havin' fun over there?" Jumping at his voice they both snapped their heads around quickly, in turn making the bed wobble and waking Nicki up.
"Ughh, why are y'all sat starin' at me when I'm sleepin'? Weirdos." Laughing at her not even opening her eyes to speak they pulled her blanket off of her.
"'Cause we love watchin' you sleep, you look cute. Now come on, we're goin' out so get'cho ass outta bed Onika."
"No." Still laying looking sleepy she waited out the silence before blinking her eyes open slowly. "Safaree, make 'em leave? Please? Ion wanna go out, I'm tired."
"I'm not helpin' you this time Nic, you need to get outta the house. You're gonna rot away in here, 'sides I thought you said you needed maternity clothes?"
"I do but there's this new thing called online shopping, Ion know if any of y'all have heard of that but it's pretty damn handy."
"Aight, I'm not really likin' pregnant Nika right now. She's lazy as fuck." Holding eye contact with Lauren, Candi folded her lips after speaking before switching her eyes back to Nicki as she moved from her side and on to her back.
"Oh? Hows about you carry two babies inside of you and then see if you skippin' around bein' all energetic and shit."
"Nicki, get up. We'll be waitin' downstairs and you've got exactly thirty minutes." Leaving her laying there they all filed out and headed downstairs. Hearing her groaning in a tantrum-like manner after they'd gone.
"Wow, you guys are gon' have fun with her today!"
"SB, don't even!" He could tell Lauren was riled about something but didn't want to press her so toned down his jokes as he shared a look with Candi.
Flopping gracefully on to the couch she ignored Lauren's huffing and faced Safaree. "Anyways, s'been goin' on SB?"
He shrugged before remembering the text Nicki got from Drake last night, but he decided not to say anything. "Nothin'." I been playin' housewife and Nicki's done nothin' but sleep forever."
"Yeah, is that even normal?" She raised her brow slightly and watched Safaree's face scrunch up.
"Ion know, I was readin-"
"Wait! SB, reading? Wow, you really are serious 'bout this huh?"
"Candi we're talkin' 'bout the woman I love and my possible kids here? Of course I'm serious!" He sat back and tilted his a hat a little.
"My bad, sorry I asked." She rolled her eyes playfully. "But really though, I'm happy for y'all and it's about freaking time too!"
Almost thirty minutes later a furious looking Nicki appeared at the bottom of the stairs. "Kay, I'm ready are we goin' or what?" They all shared a exchange of glances as she grumpily shoved her shades on and threw her bag over her shoulder.
"Oh, so you're not gon' say goodbye?" He walked over with his arms outstretched as she stood sulking.
"No. You're forcing me to leave the comfort of my own home. I'm mad with you."
Feeling his arms wrap around her from behind and rest over her bump she tried hard to stop the smile from spreading across her face. "You still mad?"
"No."
"But?"
"But pleeaaase don't make me go? I really, really, really don't want to Faree." Hearing them both whispering Candi and Lauren interrupted them, instantly knowing what Nicki was probably doing.
"Aight! Lets go!" Gently grabbing and arm each the dragged a reluctant Nicki out of the door, letting Safaree peck her lips quickly.
Not one of them had stopped to think of any reasons why she might not want to go out though...
dun, dun, duuuuuun >:)
*It's a liiiiiiittle short, I know AND I typed a majority of this in one of my psychology lectures BUT don't worry and don't yell at me it was the last lecture of the term and I'm re-watching them before exams anyways ^_^ so it's allllll good :) But you got this chap and tmrw I'm gonna be typing like a crazy bitch cuz I'm doing CM, WTWC and FY :)) I'm rethinking my decision to completely end FY cuz I had a few DM's about it and ppl wanted it updating soo....Imma sleep on that :) OH and more drama with the next chap for this fic ^__^ Thx for all ur previous comments too! x *
Tuesday 2 October 2012
Which blog am I posting on this week?
Kay, I have a time slot for writing a chapter on Thursday night soooo which blog would you like updating CM, WTWC, CAHM, HIA or FY? ^__^ Or if it's easier you can just DM me on twitter :))
It's Barbie Biiiitch! :*
It's Barbie Biiiitch! :*
Sunday 30 September 2012
13. Shadow (Full Chapter)
Without warning Nicki stood up in a state of anxiety causing Safaree to understandably start to panic.
"Nic? What is it? What's wrong?" He grabbed her hand as she tugged at him to leave.
"Please can we just go? Ion wanna be in here." She let go of him and started to swiftly make her way to the exit when he just stood still in confusion. He only let her get two steps away before he was on her tail again.
"Nicki?" His large hand grasped on to her tiny wrist as she kept trying to get to the door.
"Safaree please?!" The volume of her plea made people enjoying their meals turn around to stare. Including Drake. He hadn't even considered bumping into her just yet, this was just coincidence. Dropping his napkin he rose to his feet and headed towards them. He knew SB wouldn't cause a scene in public, especially when Nicki was with him. You could call her his protection in a way.
"Fancy seein' you two here. Of all the places, weird huh?" He sidled up to the couple, Safaree could feel her shaking and knew he had to get them out of the eyes of everyone in the room. They were more visible now and people were starting to whisper and point, noticing who she was and what was different about her. It wasn't hard to miss, she was six months pregnant, with twins. He would deal with Drake's ass another time, knowing that if he started screaming, yelling and throwing punches more attention would be drawn to their presence.
"The fuck do you want?" His hushed whisper was only heard by tables close by as Nicki attempted to stay out of Drake's view.
"Ion want anythin'! 'Specially not from you." He made eyes at Nicki before following the contours of her body down to her bump. "S'up Nic? Cat got yo' tongue?" She turned away, hating that he had this hold on her. She was, and still is a strong individual but with him, it was different. He was dangerous, more so given her current state.
"DON'T!" Safaree paused, attempting to regain his composure. "Don't talk to her, and stay the fuck away." He put emphasis on the right words, making his message more than extremely clear as Drake backed away a little. More people were staring which caused him to hold his hands up and walk off backwards. He wasn't don with them just yet. Watching walk off Nicki let out a breath of relief as Safaree took her hand in his. "Come on, let's go."
The journey home was silent as Nicki continued to stare out of the window. Safaree was beyond pissed. He felt like he'd broken through her barriers and was terrified that the little confrontation with Drake would be a set back. As he pulled into the gated driveway he cut the engine once they were fully in the garage. Silence drowned the atmosphere.
"You kay?" He ran his hand down the length of her arm, slightly pleased with the effect as he saw a tidal wave of goose bumps overtake her skin.
"Yeah, I'm fine." Although the smile she presented told him otherwise, he still nodded and let himself out of the car making sure to go to her side and get her door. She looked tired and honestly he wasn't sure if it was actual fatigue or the series of events taking effect on her. He didn't want to seem overly keen or pushy but he'd been doing his reading on the quiet, being pregnant with twins did result in a higher level of exhaustion so he put it down to that. Once they were inside she headed straight upstairs causing him to sigh, he didn't know what to do. Starting trouble with Drake would make things worse, he was sure of it but all the time, at the back of his mind his sick face was there. Laughing. Inhaling and exhaling slowly he ran his hands down his face, if they couldn't go out and eat then they would stay in and eat. As long as she had food in her cupboards he'd make something for the pair of them. Rummaging around he managed to put together some things that would make a nice breakfast, well lunch now but that was ok. He shut the fridge door and did a double take at the calendar. At 4pm today Nicki had an appointment for an ultrasound scan. He let his eyes wander upwards and noticed the same scribbling down only it had been crossed out, obviously she had either missed her appointment or couldn't make it. She definitely wasn't going to miss this one. Not on his watch anyway. His chef skills were put to the test as he prepared their food, but everything came out perfect. He'd made bruschetta and was actually quite pleased with his work, smiling proudly he made his way up to her room. But hearing voices he stopped, not breathing he relaxed once Judge Judy's voice became more audible. Her and that show. Shaking his head he knocked and entered whilst trying to balance the tray carefully.
"Hey, I made you a little somethin' to eat. You hungry?" She was curled up on her bed watching TV, her big pink blanket draped over her tiny body. The outline of her bump looked even bigger underneath all the fabric.
"Uh yes!" She lowered the TV volume and sat upright, making room for him and pulling her blanket back so that he could climb under with her. "Thank you." She kissed his cheek as he handed her plate over.
"I, uh, made it myself so don't be expectin', y'know, like some Top Chef shit kay?" She giggled genuinely which made him smile.
"Don't act stupid, it smells really good." Her voice became harder to hear as she started slicing into the crunchy bread.
"Oh yeah and you have an appointment today, you forget?"
"Shit, I did. I'll change it to next week."
"No. You were supposed to go last week, weren't you?" He saw her mouth twitching as she tried to think up some excuse which he already knew would be a lie. "I saw it on the calendar Nic. It's a 4pm today, so be ready to leave." Rolling her eyes she nodded and finished off her lunch.
"I was putting it off." Safaree turned to look at her.
"Why? Don't you wanna know how they are and if everythin's alright in there?"
"Of course! But, Ion know. Going alone it just made me sad." Her words were slightly warped as she pouted halfway through her sentence.
"Well I'm here now. I can go with you."
"Thanks Faree." She leant in to kiss him sweetly but the innocent gesture got a little heated as she deepened the kiss, causing him to put more force into his actions. Taking her bottom lip into his mouth he felt her moan quietly against him before pulling away. "Well Imma go take another shower before we go." As soon as she hopped of the bed carefully he felt bad, he didn't want to seem like he was pushing her too much. Especially with how Drake treated her. She was delicate, fragile even. He desperately didn't want to force himself on her.
***
Sat in the waiting room his thoughts were running wild. He was really freaking out. He wasn't ready for this. Seeing all the parents and babies around him started fuelling thoughts of inadequacy and panic. Truthfully he'd been feeling like this since he found out Nicki was pregnant even if they were his. Leaving her was definitely not an option, he loved her unconditionally so if that meant taking on kids he'd do it. Knowing he was going to struggle if they were his own babies was hard enough, he had no idea what he would do if he was faced with the possibility of having to raise another man's children. He wasn't so sure if he could handle that.
"Ms Minaj?" A tall slender woman walked over to them, she'd said her name quietly so as not to draw attention to her being there. "You can go through now." With a small smile she headed back through to the room with Nicki and Safaree following close behind.
"Hello Nicki." Hayley's cheerful voice welcomed them inside. "Here you go, you get yourself comfortable on here whilst I get set up." She lay a protective sheet across the bed and let Nicki climb on with a little help from Safaree.
"Oh yeah Hayley, this is Safaree and Safaree this is Hayley." She smiled at them shaking hands.
"Well Safaree, if you want you can just pull that chair forward and take a seat?" Pointing to the furniture helpfully she smiled as he took her offer. "Ok well let's get this show on the road then. Also today I'm gonna talk to you a little bit about birthing options. You have any idea how you wanna do it?" She continued to talk as she prepared everything.
"Uhm no not really. I'm not quite sure what the options are?" She frowned and looked over at Safaree worriedly, he inched forward so that he could hold her hand. Not sure whether he was the one who needed to be reassured right now or her.
"Oh, well that's fine. We'll discuss that now and get an idea of what you want and then I'll get the scan on the way." Leaving what she was doing she pulled herself a chair out and sat down whilst Nicki sat herself up some more to be involved in the conversation. "Okay, seeing as this is your first pregnancy and with twins for that matter, I wouldn't really recommend a home birth. So it looks like you'll definitely be in a hospital kay?" They both nodded seriously. "But that's ok, it doesn't mean you're in any way limited in choice. You can still opt to use the birthing pool or just y'know be laying comfortably in a bed!" They shared a little laugh before she continued. "But, and this is a big but, it all depends on these little ones." She lay her hand gently on Nicki's bump as Safaree looked apprehensively at her. She squeezed his hand comfortingly.
"What do you mean?" Her voice was quiet as she spoke softly.
"Well, let's just call them baby A and baby B for now." She stood up to show them where each baby was positioned, using her hands to point on Nicki's bump. "So baby A is here, and over this side we've got baby B. If baby A is in breach position then we'll have to perform a caesarian. There are some positives however, results and research indicate that a caesarian birth actually benefits the babies in the case of multiple births. The only down side for some women is not being able to deliver naturally and the recovery time is a bit longer than what you'd experience through natural delivery." Once again they both nodded as she moved away to stick some gloves on. "So I've given you the run down, maybe just have a little think and then we can get some things prepared. Unless of course the babies decide for you! Oh and that's another thing, usually with twins it's extremely common not to reach full term with your pregnancy."
"Meaning?" She switched her eyes back to Safaree's concerned face.
"It just means that it's not rare for women to give birth prematurely with twins." She looked back at Nicki. "So don't panic if your waters break when you're in the later stage but not quite full term." Her smile reassured the couple before she asked Nicki to lift her top up and slide her pants down a little. Safaree felt like a bundle of nerves. He felt deep down that was a good thing though, he was obviously feeling something about this whole thing. All of that changed though. As soon as the image appeared and he could literally see the shape of both babies his whole stance relaxed. He saw Nicki's eyes glistening as she looked over the screen. Moving closer her gripped her hand more and carried on staring at the image. "So here's your little girl and up here you've got your boy." She let them have their little moment before turning back to the screen as she scribbled some things down on a clipboard. "Don't start worrying because this is not uncommon and right now it's not causing a huge issue but the baby girl is looking a lot smaller than the little man." She folded her lips and continued to look over the notes.
"Well, how bad is that? She'll be ok right?" Safaree's question mirrored Nicki's thoughts as she tried to hold back the tears.
"I'll go get Dr Hall to come take a quick look to be sure but right now everything seems to be in check barring the size difference." She removed her gloves after setting the scan up to remain attached to her abdomen before leaving to go get the doctor.
"Hey, calm down. Eveythin's gon' be fine, she'll be ok." He kept stroking her hand to try and soothe her whilst they waited. Before long Hayley returned with Dr Hall following.
"Good afternoon Ms Minaj." They returned the greeting as he smiled warmly before applying some gloves. "Okay, I'm just going to have a listen to their heartbeats and see if everything is running smoothly." Doing what he said he was going to do he squinted as he listened. They all stayed silent, waiting for him to finish. "Yes, that's what I thought." He pulled away and stood to the side. "Baby B, which is the girl has a sightly weaker heartbeat, but it's not causing an issue now. Hayley was right, y'know, they're still developing so we'll see how everything goes and check up on that at your next appointment ok?" They just nodded again, that's all they felt they could do for the time being.
***
"So what's gonna happen now?" Lauren was leaning against the kitchen counter as Safaree cleared away the plates and food scraps from their dinner. Nicki was quiet again all the way home but he knew she was worrying about the baby. Sensing that her spirits were down he called Candi and Lauren to come over but they beat him to it, they were already on their way at the time. He cooked dinner for them all and now he was tidying up, Candi as always was sat unhelpfully watching TV and Nicki was asleep on the couch next to her.
"Well they said there was nothing to worry about, for now."
"For now? So, later on it could be bad?" Her face was full of concern as they finished up in the kitchen and headed back through to join the other two in the lounge room.
"They wanna keep an eye on her progress, in comparison to other one, the boy."
"Poor Nic." She sat down, careful not to wake her sleeping friend and looked back up at him. "So how are you holdin' up? Everythin' goin' ok?"
"Yeah, yeah. Baby steps but we're gettin' there." She smiled hearing that things were going well.
"Just don't let her go back to the way she was, please. It's not healthy." At that point Candi looked over and decided to chirp in.
"Yeah and her freaking mood swings were a nightmare when she was pining for you!" Lauren and Safaree laughed resulting in Nicki shifting slightly.
"Well, we better leave you guys to it. We'll call 'round tomorrow though." She went to stand up but Safaree stopped her.
"Actually guys, could you try and persuade her to go out with you tomorrow? Y'know and do all that girly stuff that y'all get up to, shoppin' and shit?"
"Uhm, yeah sure. Ion know if she'll go though." He walked them both to door as their conversation carried on.
"No I think she will. She was cryin' this morning 'cause none of her clothes fit her!"
"Aww, wait...You didn't laugh at her did you?" Lauren placed a hand on her hip with a knowing smile on her face as Candi cackled.
"Oh that girl is a mess! We'll be here at 11am! Tell her to be ready or she's just gon' have to go in her jammies and Ion give a fuck who sees her!" They both said goodbye before he shut and locked the door behind them. He walked back to Nicki and smiled at how cute she looked, almost as if her body was curled around her bump. Going to the appointment with her was a really good move. Just seeing the babies like that and knowing they could be his had a completely different effect on him. In fact, now he was excited. It seemed ridiculous that after only one scan his mind was completely changed but it was true. All three of them right in front of him were his babies.
"What are you lookin' at?" Her voice was full of sleep as she turned to look at him.
"You." She smiled up at him and pulled her top down a little as it was riding up.
"You're so weird." He ducked just in time as she laughed a threw a cushion his way, trying to sit herself up some more. "So, did the scan change things?"
"Well yeah-" He stopped and sat next to her. "Wait, what do you mean? I was always ok with it y'know?" Her raised brow told him she already knew.
"Safaree I can read you like a damn book. You were freaking the fuck out!" She laughed as his face relaxed into a smile.
"If I'm bein' honest with you, yes I was a little overwhelmed. I've only known for two days but after today, seein' their little weird lookin' alien bodies on that screen made me love 'em already." She was about to open her mouth and talk but he knew what she was going to say and beat her to it.
"Yes! Even if they're not mine. And I honestly I really mean it this time." He pulled out his wallet and showed her the ultrasound image neatly placed inside next to a picture of the two of them together. "I'm gon' be there for you, always. You and these two." He placed his hand over hers on her bump and kissed her forehead already knowing that she was probably crying. She was.
"I love you." She sniffled as he said it back after she hit him softly. "Our babies don't look like aliens Faree." What she said caused him to start laughing as he pulled his wallet out again.
"Yes they do! See!" He pointed out the similarities that they shared with aliens before turning the playfulness down. "Well just because they look like lil' martians doesn't mean I don't love 'em. 'Cause I do."
"Yeah, me too." She exposed her dimples with a small smile as she looked down at herself, Safaree was rubbing her stomach softly. He noticed her relax some more as he kept up the movement and decided to stop before she fell to sleep again.
"Come on, Ion know 'bout you but I'm ready to pass out." He stood up and tugged her little hand, encouraging her to stand up as well. They speedily changed and got into bed, just laying together for a while in silence until he realised she was already asleep, breathing softly. She was tucked with her back right up to his bare chest, holding on to his arms which were wrapped protectively around her. He was about to let his eyes start to close when her phone screen lit up on her nightstand, reaching over gently to grab it he felt his body tense up instantly as he opened up the message and read it.
*Ahkaaay I did this so that It was out the way cuz I wlda lost my train of thought and all that so yeah! here you go ^__^ Hope it was ok for you all and THANKU for al the comments on the sneak peek I didn't expect to get many on that but thanks!! Sorry for any typos and Imma try and do CM tonight also If I havent got ur @ names on twitter and you would like to be notified via twitter when I post just leave them with your comment and I'll mention you whenever I post ^_^ OH and I know NOTHING bout babies and medical terms so if Im wrong that's why!*
Saturday 29 September 2012
12. Shadow *Sneak Peek*
*Sorry it's only a mini sneak peak ^_^ I feel bad cuz this blog seems to be the one that gets the most comments :// Well hope the sneak peek is ok for you all*
Without warning Nicki stood up in a state of anxiety causing Safaree to understandably start to panic.
"Nic? What is it? What's wrong?" He grabbed her hand as she tugged at him to leave.
"Please can we just go? Ion wanna be in here." She let go of him and started to swiftly make her way to the exit when he just stood still in confusion. He only let her get two steps away before he was on her tail again.
"Nicki?" His large hand grasped on to her tiny wrist as she kept trying to get to the door.
"Safaree please?!" The volume of her plea made people enjoying their meals turn around to stare. Including Drake. He hadn't even considered bumping into her just yet, this was just coincidence. Dropping his napkin he rose to his feet and headed towards them. He knew SB wouldn't cause a scene in public, especially when Nicki was with him. You could call her his protection in a way.
"Fancy seein' you two here. Of all the places, weird huh?" He sidled up to the couple, Safaree could feel her shaking and knew he had to get them out of the eyes of everyone in the room. They were more visible now and people were starting to whisper and point, noticing who she was and what was different about her. It wasn't hard to miss, she was six months pregnant, with twins. He would deal with Drake's ass another time, knowing that if he started screaming, yelling and throwing punches more attention would be drawn to their presence.
"The fuck do you want?" His hushed whisper was only heard by tables close by as Nicki attempted to stay out of Drake's view.
"Ion want anythin'! 'Specially not from you." He made eyes at Nicki before following the contours of her body down to her bump. "S'up Nic? Cat got yo' tongue?" She turned away, hating that he had this hold on her. She was, and still is a strong individual but with him, it was different. He was dangerous, more so given her current state.
"DON'T!" Safaree paused, attempting to regain his composure. "Don't talk to her, and stay the fuck away." He put emphasis on the right words, making his message more than extremely clear as Drake backed away a little. More people were staring which caused him to hold his hands up and walk off backwards. He wasn't don with them just yet. Watching walk off Nicki let out a breath of relief as Safaree took her hand in his. "Come on, let's go."
*Might post the rest 2mrw if I have time ^___^ Thanks SOOOOOO Much for the 16 comments, that's like the most I have EVER got!! :))*
Without warning Nicki stood up in a state of anxiety causing Safaree to understandably start to panic.
"Nic? What is it? What's wrong?" He grabbed her hand as she tugged at him to leave.
"Please can we just go? Ion wanna be in here." She let go of him and started to swiftly make her way to the exit when he just stood still in confusion. He only let her get two steps away before he was on her tail again.
"Nicki?" His large hand grasped on to her tiny wrist as she kept trying to get to the door.
"Safaree please?!" The volume of her plea made people enjoying their meals turn around to stare. Including Drake. He hadn't even considered bumping into her just yet, this was just coincidence. Dropping his napkin he rose to his feet and headed towards them. He knew SB wouldn't cause a scene in public, especially when Nicki was with him. You could call her his protection in a way.
"Fancy seein' you two here. Of all the places, weird huh?" He sidled up to the couple, Safaree could feel her shaking and knew he had to get them out of the eyes of everyone in the room. They were more visible now and people were starting to whisper and point, noticing who she was and what was different about her. It wasn't hard to miss, she was six months pregnant, with twins. He would deal with Drake's ass another time, knowing that if he started screaming, yelling and throwing punches more attention would be drawn to their presence.
"The fuck do you want?" His hushed whisper was only heard by tables close by as Nicki attempted to stay out of Drake's view.
"Ion want anythin'! 'Specially not from you." He made eyes at Nicki before following the contours of her body down to her bump. "S'up Nic? Cat got yo' tongue?" She turned away, hating that he had this hold on her. She was, and still is a strong individual but with him, it was different. He was dangerous, more so given her current state.
"DON'T!" Safaree paused, attempting to regain his composure. "Don't talk to her, and stay the fuck away." He put emphasis on the right words, making his message more than extremely clear as Drake backed away a little. More people were staring which caused him to hold his hands up and walk off backwards. He wasn't don with them just yet. Watching walk off Nicki let out a breath of relief as Safaree took her hand in his. "Come on, let's go."
*Might post the rest 2mrw if I have time ^___^ Thanks SOOOOOO Much for the 16 comments, that's like the most I have EVER got!! :))*
Thursday 20 September 2012
11. Rightfully Reunited - Part Two
*This is a little short because I've posted on two blogs 2day Cause I won't be posting tomorrow or maybe Saturday :// Hope this is alright for everyone :)) OH yeah and @TeamMinajVA lmao at wut you said about Drake. I really do love him and he's nice in two of my other blogs WTWC and HIA I'm working on him being nice in FY and CM but for CAHM he's a bit of an ass XD Kay so THANKU all SO much for the comments!! They made me smile so big!! And whoever said my blogs where fucktastic, thx haha lmao! I'm really nervous about posting now because y'all really liked the last chapter and I'm always afraid that I'm not going to live up to previous chapters :o So hopefully this is ok ://*
Nicki woke through the night in a cold sweat and tried to calm herself down whilst she was still wrapped neatly in Safaree's arms. That soothed her a little, knowing that they were well on the way to repairing their damaged relationship, she looked over at him sleeping peacefully and wished that sleep would find her again too. Feeling the babies moving she rested her hand on her bump and thought for a little while, she really hoped that they were Safaree's but she had a horrible nagging feeling that they weren't.
"What's wrong?" He moved his head to face her, she hadn't noticed him wake up.
"Nothing, I just can't get back to sleep." Without saying another word he pulled her closer, knowing what he was doing because as soon as he tightened his grip around her she was asleep again in no time.
The next morning he woke up to the sweet sound of vomiting. Something he figured he'd have to get used to seeing as babies vomited a lot as well. And they were having two of them. Not hesitating to go see if she was ok he made his way into the bathroom as she flushed the toilet and pulled her toothbrush out of the cabinet.
"You okay?" He rubbed her back as she just nodded groggily with toothpaste foaming out of her mouth. "I guess you won't be wanting foo-" Before he could finish she shut her eyes tight and shook her head no.
"Ok, no food." he kissed her cheek before leaving her alone as he heard the shower start up. He wanted to do something special for her but didn't know whether she felt up to leaving the house. She definitely didn't want food, although she'd have to eat at some point and there wasn't much else they could do. The thought of offering to help her shop for baby stuff seemed a bit too forward to him, what if she thought he was just pushing in on something that didn't involve him? After all they might not even be his. She stood staring at his little confused face which was deep in thought as she exited the bathroom in only her towel.
"You kay there Faree?" She planted herself next to him on the bed.
"Hmm? Oh, yeah I'm fine. Just thinkin'."
"Oh? Always a dangerous thing." She giggled as he pouted pathetically.
"Enough of that, what do you wanna do today?" He sat back slightly as she started lotioning herself.
"Ugh, Ion know, something that doesn't involve me havin' to leave here."
"Nic, have you even been outta the house?"
"Nope. Been locked up in here forever. Ion wanna have to face everyone, 'specially the freaking paparazzi. I really can't be dealin' with them." She rolled her eyes thinking about it.
"Nicki, that really isn't good though. You need to get out and get some fresh air."
"I'll open a window later, I'm fine." She finished up lotioning and grabbed herself some clean clothes, stay at home clothes.
"Ohkaay then." He folded his lips and fell back. Suddenly feeling something hit him in the face he reached up only to grab hold of her bra, which she had flung his way.
"Oh, so it's gon' be like that huh? Geez, I'm tryna help and this is what I get?" He dropped it carelessly on the floor and tried to stand up but she stood on his feet which were still planted firmly to the floor.
"No, I'm sorry don't leave me." She laughed even more when he started walking with her still on his feet, but for fear of tripping and squashing her he lifted her off gently.
"You still don't want any breakfast?"
"Mmm." She paused as she twitched her mouth and tilted her head in thought. "Actually yeah I could eat somethin' I guess."
"Good. change your clothes, we're goin' out to eat."
"What? Faree no! Ion wanna go out." She poked her bottom lip out and sat back down slowly.
"Pout all you want, PoutNika, but we're goin'. End of. So hurry up." He kissed her forehead before heading into the bathroom to do his morning duties too.
"Tellin' me what to do." She mumbled as she rummaged to find something presentable yet comfy to wear. Honestly she didn't have anything that would fit which resulted in her sat crying like a child on the floor. He was alarmed when he came out of the bathroom to find her in tears but when she explained why she was upset he had to try really hard not to laugh.
"Damn hormones." He muttered before helping her up. "Look, stop crying! You're not fat, you're carrying twins. We'll go get you some of them stretchy clothes today, kay?" He waited for a verbal response but she just nodded sadly and threw some sweats back on. "There see? You look fine." she smiled weakly and made her way downstairs whilst he got dressed, hoping and praying that she wouldn't be like this for the next three months.
***
They'd been driving for about five minutes when someone spotted them, understandably Nicki was on edge and wanted to go home already but Safaree knew it wasn't good for her to be cooped up twenty four seven.
"Please can we just turn around? They're followin' us Faree." She looked out of the window as they drove down the slow moving street, there was only three photographers following on foot but she knew as soon as she got out of the car more would appear.
"It's fine Nicki, I'm not gon' let anythin' happen to you. Any of you." He put his hand over hers which was habitually resting on her bump.
"I know, but it's not just that though. I've been out of the public eye forever, nobody knows where I'm at or anythin' and Ion want-" He cut in and finished her sentence.
"Drake to find out?" He looked at her momentarily as he forced his eyes back to the road.
"Yeah." She sighed quietly. "That and nobody even knows I'm freaking pregnant yet."
"That's mad, Ion even know how've managed to keep that under wraps."
"I told you. I haven't left your house in, like, a lifetime." Just as she finished up what she was saying he pulled into a restaurant parking lot, the photographers were nowhere to be seen.
"You ready? Imma ask for a table at the back so no one can come annoy us." She just nodded at everything he said before he opened his door and went around to get hers for her. She stepped out warily and he noticed so he quickly grasped her hand in his and led her to the door. After he asked for a table right at the back a young girl showed them the way and left them to choose what they wanted to order. "You all good now?"
"Yeah, thank you. I really did need to get out." She smiled gratefully and continued looking over the menu. Once they'd decided a waitress came over and took their order and left them to talk, but it wasn't long before Nicki spotted his face from across the restaurant.
*:O sooooo sorry it's only a liddle chapter, I don't really like it either but Im posting anyways :// Hope it was ok though and THX again for all the comments on chapter 10!! ^_______^ Also a MASSIVE shoutout to the people who comment without fail! You guys are the reason I still write and you know who you are, so thanku ^____^ <3 Oh and what do you want updating next? FY, HIA, CAHM, WTWC or CM? *
Nicki woke through the night in a cold sweat and tried to calm herself down whilst she was still wrapped neatly in Safaree's arms. That soothed her a little, knowing that they were well on the way to repairing their damaged relationship, she looked over at him sleeping peacefully and wished that sleep would find her again too. Feeling the babies moving she rested her hand on her bump and thought for a little while, she really hoped that they were Safaree's but she had a horrible nagging feeling that they weren't.
"What's wrong?" He moved his head to face her, she hadn't noticed him wake up.
"Nothing, I just can't get back to sleep." Without saying another word he pulled her closer, knowing what he was doing because as soon as he tightened his grip around her she was asleep again in no time.
The next morning he woke up to the sweet sound of vomiting. Something he figured he'd have to get used to seeing as babies vomited a lot as well. And they were having two of them. Not hesitating to go see if she was ok he made his way into the bathroom as she flushed the toilet and pulled her toothbrush out of the cabinet.
"You okay?" He rubbed her back as she just nodded groggily with toothpaste foaming out of her mouth. "I guess you won't be wanting foo-" Before he could finish she shut her eyes tight and shook her head no.
"Ok, no food." he kissed her cheek before leaving her alone as he heard the shower start up. He wanted to do something special for her but didn't know whether she felt up to leaving the house. She definitely didn't want food, although she'd have to eat at some point and there wasn't much else they could do. The thought of offering to help her shop for baby stuff seemed a bit too forward to him, what if she thought he was just pushing in on something that didn't involve him? After all they might not even be his. She stood staring at his little confused face which was deep in thought as she exited the bathroom in only her towel.
"You kay there Faree?" She planted herself next to him on the bed.
"Hmm? Oh, yeah I'm fine. Just thinkin'."
"Oh? Always a dangerous thing." She giggled as he pouted pathetically.
"Enough of that, what do you wanna do today?" He sat back slightly as she started lotioning herself.
"Ugh, Ion know, something that doesn't involve me havin' to leave here."
"Nic, have you even been outta the house?"
"Nope. Been locked up in here forever. Ion wanna have to face everyone, 'specially the freaking paparazzi. I really can't be dealin' with them." She rolled her eyes thinking about it.
"Nicki, that really isn't good though. You need to get out and get some fresh air."
"I'll open a window later, I'm fine." She finished up lotioning and grabbed herself some clean clothes, stay at home clothes.
"Ohkaay then." He folded his lips and fell back. Suddenly feeling something hit him in the face he reached up only to grab hold of her bra, which she had flung his way.
"Oh, so it's gon' be like that huh? Geez, I'm tryna help and this is what I get?" He dropped it carelessly on the floor and tried to stand up but she stood on his feet which were still planted firmly to the floor.
"No, I'm sorry don't leave me." She laughed even more when he started walking with her still on his feet, but for fear of tripping and squashing her he lifted her off gently.
"You still don't want any breakfast?"
"Mmm." She paused as she twitched her mouth and tilted her head in thought. "Actually yeah I could eat somethin' I guess."
"Good. change your clothes, we're goin' out to eat."
"What? Faree no! Ion wanna go out." She poked her bottom lip out and sat back down slowly.
"Pout all you want, PoutNika, but we're goin'. End of. So hurry up." He kissed her forehead before heading into the bathroom to do his morning duties too.
"Tellin' me what to do." She mumbled as she rummaged to find something presentable yet comfy to wear. Honestly she didn't have anything that would fit which resulted in her sat crying like a child on the floor. He was alarmed when he came out of the bathroom to find her in tears but when she explained why she was upset he had to try really hard not to laugh.
"Damn hormones." He muttered before helping her up. "Look, stop crying! You're not fat, you're carrying twins. We'll go get you some of them stretchy clothes today, kay?" He waited for a verbal response but she just nodded sadly and threw some sweats back on. "There see? You look fine." she smiled weakly and made her way downstairs whilst he got dressed, hoping and praying that she wouldn't be like this for the next three months.
***
They'd been driving for about five minutes when someone spotted them, understandably Nicki was on edge and wanted to go home already but Safaree knew it wasn't good for her to be cooped up twenty four seven.
"Please can we just turn around? They're followin' us Faree." She looked out of the window as they drove down the slow moving street, there was only three photographers following on foot but she knew as soon as she got out of the car more would appear.
"It's fine Nicki, I'm not gon' let anythin' happen to you. Any of you." He put his hand over hers which was habitually resting on her bump.
"I know, but it's not just that though. I've been out of the public eye forever, nobody knows where I'm at or anythin' and Ion want-" He cut in and finished her sentence.
"Drake to find out?" He looked at her momentarily as he forced his eyes back to the road.
"Yeah." She sighed quietly. "That and nobody even knows I'm freaking pregnant yet."
"That's mad, Ion even know how've managed to keep that under wraps."
"I told you. I haven't left your house in, like, a lifetime." Just as she finished up what she was saying he pulled into a restaurant parking lot, the photographers were nowhere to be seen.
"You ready? Imma ask for a table at the back so no one can come annoy us." She just nodded at everything he said before he opened his door and went around to get hers for her. She stepped out warily and he noticed so he quickly grasped her hand in his and led her to the door. After he asked for a table right at the back a young girl showed them the way and left them to choose what they wanted to order. "You all good now?"
"Yeah, thank you. I really did need to get out." She smiled gratefully and continued looking over the menu. Once they'd decided a waitress came over and took their order and left them to talk, but it wasn't long before Nicki spotted his face from across the restaurant.
*:O sooooo sorry it's only a liddle chapter, I don't really like it either but Im posting anyways :// Hope it was ok though and THX again for all the comments on chapter 10!! ^_______^ Also a MASSIVE shoutout to the people who comment without fail! You guys are the reason I still write and you know who you are, so thanku ^____^ <3 Oh and what do you want updating next? FY, HIA, CAHM, WTWC or CM? *
Sunday 16 September 2012
10. Rightfully Reunited - Part One
As he dropped his bags down on to the floor he looked up to see a shell shocked Nicki stood before him. He didn't really know how to greet her or if he should greet her after the way they left things, he noticed her pulling uncomfortably at the front of his old hoodie she was wearing, she only had on a pair of bikini bottoms.
"Safaree? You're....Back." She sounded both shocked and scared.
"Yeah looks that way huh?" He set his bags down in the hallway as he just continued to stare at her, for some reason it felt really awkward and she must have felt the same because she kept looking down and fidgeting. "So. How you been?" He didn't mean for to sound as plain as it did, it kind of came across that he didn't really care. She wrinkled her brow and shook her head a little.
"Just fine. Thank you. How 'bout yourself?" She returned the same feeling of uncomfortableness causing him to sigh.
"Nic, I ain't mean for it to come out like that and you know it."
"Oh? Do I?! I mean, when was the last time you freaking called or-" He jumped forward angrily.
"Don't fucking start with all that! Forreal? You never bothered to keep in touch either! Hell, you couldn't even be bothered to show up to our goodbye dinner! The fuck is up with that Nicki?!" He kept his eyes fixed on hers as his nostrils flared.
"Ugh." She curled her lip. "I can't believe you." She turned to walk away but he grabbed her wrist and in that moment memories of Drake came flooding back. All she could see was his angry face. "Stop! Let the fuck go of me!" He loosened his grip seeing the absolute terror on her face, she was desperately fighting the tears as her body shook uncontrollably. Out of instinct reaction, both of her hands had gone immediately to her bump as she held herself protectively. His eyes gravitated down to where they rested.
"Nic, are you-" The confusion was written all over his face and clearly evident in his wobbly voice.
"Pregnant? Yes, yes I am! So get the fuck outta here doin' shit like that!" She let the tears roll down her face as he tried to step closer to her. "I mean it Safaree! Don't!" Hearing all the commotion outside Lauren came running through to find Nicki in a state, Safaree was out of her view at that point.
"Nicki?! What's happened? Is it the babies?" She gently guided her to the bottom step on the stairs. "Here sit down, I'll go get you a drink." She'd noticed her shaking and remembered that her Midwife had said to give her a sugary drink if this happened. As she turned she came face to face with Safaree, he looked in shock too as he was still staring down at Nicki who was trying to regulate her breathing, which had just become unexplainably erratic. "Oh my God! SB? When did you get here?" she smiled as she hugged him but then frowned realising that Nicki's mini panic attack must have been something to do with him, she pulled away slowly. "S'goin on?" She looked between the two of them, both stayed silent until Nicki tearfully spoke up.
"Nothin', I'm just...I'm gon' go have a lie down for a bit." She stood herself up slowly and grabbed a blanket from the clean washing pile at the bottom of the stairs, wrapping it around herself as she ascended the stairs carefully. Lauren was totally confused and a little angry too.
"The fuck you gone and done to her?"
"Me?!" He motioned to himself. "I ain't do shit! I come here to find her fucking pregnant and she ain't even told me!" He rubbed his face angrily.
"Don't act dumb. She told you over the phone that they could be your babies, and you're the one who couldn't give two shits! Everythin' that nigga put her though and you couldn't even call to see how she was? Nah, you can leave for that." Attempting to show him to the door he stopped her.
"Wait 'Babies' as in, more than one?" He looked puzzled and then he threw another question at her. "And Drake? What did he do to her?" His face had gone from angry to one hundred percent worried.
"You know she's having twi-" Lauren stopped as she looked down shaking her head. "She didn't call you did she?"
"No."
"Imma kill her. I should have guessed!" She walked through to the lounge room with him following as they took a seat. "Ion wanna be meddlin' in your business but she ain't helpin' none. Nic's pregnant with twins." She watched his face drain of colour before continuing. "They could be yours, or Drake's."
"You still ain't told me what he did to her?" Lauren cringed, this really had nothing to do with her but for Nick's sake and the babies, all of this needed to be sorted out. Now.
"I told her to go to the police but she wouldn't. She didn't want Young Money to come out of it badly which I said prolly wouldn't happen. It was Drake's doin', not like anyone else was involved."
"Can you just tell me?"
Lauren breathed in and out slowly before talking calmly and quietly. "He started drinkin', a lot and things got heated. He was hittin' her, hurtin' her and..." She trailed off as she grew angry just thinking about it. Safaree already knew what came next though. He remembered all the marks he saw on her thighs that night. Why didn't he say anything? Or do anything? Instead he dismissed the obvious and left her. He felt sick and Lauren could see the rage in his eyes. "You can't do anything though SB! Promise me? That shit's in the past and Nic definitely doesn't need any more of it rakin' up. Look how she gets." Her eyes widened waiting for him to respond but he was still deep in thought about anyone laying a hand on her like that. "And besides nobody seen or heard anything from the slimy bastard since he was discharged from the rehab centre."
"I can't believe I just left her. I just lay it on her and made her feel bad for not carin' and sayin' goodbye when all the time that asshole was prolly beatin' the shit outta her." Lauren grimaced just thinking about it.
"He was playin' games with her, made her think he loved her. Tricked her into thinkin' it was all in her fuckin' head! He's sick, mentally." Safaree stood up and paced slowly.
"You think you could give us some time, alone?" She looked unsure but knew he wouldn't do anything to hurt her.
"Sure, Candi's comin' over soon so I'll just meet her out front and come back later." She stood up to go get some proper clothes on. "Oh and SB?" He looked up instantly. "Don't get her worked up, please? She's already been warned about that, it isn't good for any of them for her to be like that." She folded her lips sympathetically as she walked out of the room.
***
Once Lauren and Candi were gone Safaree made Nicki a hot drink and made his way upstairs, it was silent so he figured she was sleeping. Entering quietly he saw he curled up on her side, facing away from him. He felt so guilty about everything and he knew it was going to be a task to fix all of this but he would start by apologising. He set the drink down on her nightstand and kneeled by the side of the bed, looking over her she still looked as good as always, and now with her being pregnant she looked as though she was glowing. He traced his fingers gently along the length of her hand, both of which were securely wrapped across her bump, he couldn't believe she was having twins and they were possibly his. When Lauren told him he didn't know quite how to react, it was going to take a lot of adjusting to but he was more than prepared to be there for the woman he loved and his possible kids. Without warning her eyes shot open at his touch and she jumped back barely suppressing a scream as she clutched her chest.
"Shit! You scared me." She relaxed and flopped back down breathlessly as he stood up, noticing his hand was touching hers she pulled away from him.
"Sorry, I didn't mean to."
"S'fine." She sighed. "What do you want SB?" She had moved her eyes back to facing nothing in front of her prompting him to get in her line of vision and catch her attention.
"You." He held his position as he watched her eyes trace his body all the way up to his eyes.
"After everythin' you just said downstairs? You still 'want' me?"
"Nic, I never stopped wantin' you, can't you see that?" He furrowed his brow slightly as he once again crouched to her level so he could look into her face properly.
"Oh yeah? And what about that woman that answered the phone when I called you?" She looked down, trying to avoid his gaze. Her nose sounded stuffy letting him know that she had obviously been crying up here for a while.
"What?...Wait, when did you call?" He tried to grab her hand again, this time she let him as she swiped a tear with the other.
"I called you on Lauren's phone, some girl answered and then you came started talkin' and I hung up."
"That was you? Why did you hang up?" He pushed her hand a little and she instantly knew what he was doing as she moved back further into the centre of the bed to make room for him. He lay so that they were how they usually settled, face to face with close proximity. Just like that he made her feel so safe and secure, like she hadn't felt in a long time.
"'Cause I couldn't believe how fast you moved on an-"
"Nic, that was my assistant, Lainey." He tightened his grip on her hand as she looked down embarrassed.
"Oh."
"She was the one who told me to come back."
"Wait, she had to tell you to come back?" Her face twisted up angrily.
"No! No, not like that! She talked some sense into me, made me realise I was actin' dumb and then when I heard 'bout the big ol' wedding bein' cancelled I booked a flight as soon as." He paused before continuing. "I missed you, and I'm sorry I left you. 'Specially with everythin' that was goin' on." Bad move, as soon as he said that she snatched her hand away from him.
"The fuck do you know 'bout any of that?" He shut his eyes regretfully, he really put his foot in it now.
"Nic, she was worried 'bout you! She had to tell me." She scoffed as she sat up to get off the bed.
"Lauren told you? What else did she go and yak 'bout?" She marched off to her bathroom as best she could given her pregnant state.
"Don't be like that! She's tryin' to help Nicki. Look at me!" She stopped dead in her tracks as she felt him nearing towards her. Honestly she just wanted to turn around and be in his arms but she didn't want to just give in that easily, it wasn't in her nature. "Nicki, please?" His warm hand on her shoulder sent tingles through her body and she turned to look at him with tears, once again, balancing on her bottom lid.
"How do I know you're not just gon' do what you did before?" His head dropped.
"That was years ago, we were kids Nicki. What do I have to do to prove myself to you?!" He was getting heated now, he didn't know what she wanted from him. He told her all the time that she was his world, she meant everything to him but she never seemed to buy it and just treated their relationship as a beneficial one, sex with no strings attached. Of course that was a front and he had no clue she was feeling the same way inside. Experiencing slight guilt she grabbed his hand tenderly.
"Ion want you to prove anythin'. I just...." She dazed off. "Ion know anymore." Wiping her face she let go of him and went into the bathroom, he didn't believe what she was saying and followed her.
"Obviously that isn't true though, is it Onika? I love you and I would do anythin' to prove that to you! Please?"
"Can you just stop? I can't hear this right now, Ion even know what to think anymore Safaree, everything in here.." She pointed to he own head. "..Is just such a fucking mess!" She finished her sentence with a huge cry as more followed, increasing the frequency of her sobs. Not thinking twice her pulled he as close to his own body as he could, she stayed rigid for a while but soon melted into him. He wasn't sure why she was going into the bathroom in the first place but he decided to take her back out to the bed.
Hours passed and they were still laying there in silence, she'd fallen asleep again but he was wide awake with all the thoughts swirling in his mind. Hopefully that was it, he'd got through to her but he knew it was going to be a really, really long road back to where they were all those years ago as kids but he had to really fight to show her that he was here to stay, this time. He looked down feeling her stir a little, gently pushing her off of him he pulled a blanket over her tiny frame and drew her curtains before turning her light off and going back downstairs. It was almost 7pm and he needed to let Lauren know everything was ok, she was probably sat at home on the edge of her seat worrying. He texted her asking her to come over, he need to talk to her about everything.
***
"So he's vanished? Just like that?" He looked over at Lauren and Candi as they just nodded.
"Nobody heard anything from him, hopefully he in his rightful place. Dead in a ditch someplace nobody will find him." Candi snapped as she took another sip from her drink.
"Well he's gone, that's the main thing right?" Safaree and Candi nodded in agreement with what Lauren was saying. "How's Nic?"
"She's ok, she's still sleepin' though."
"Mmm I keep forgettin' she's like, six months pregnant!" Candi laughed lightly, making the conversation a little less depressing.
"That's how far she is?" He asked with raised brows.
"Oh, yeah, sorry I forgot to mention that. I assumed she would say somethin'."
He shook his head. "Nah, it's good. We didn't really get to speak 'bout that. I'll wait 'til tomorrow, I think she's done with it all today." He sighed and stood up double taking at the lounge room doorway as Nicki walked in slowly only to be greeted by Lauren's high pitched voice.
"Hey sleepy head, how ya feelin'?" She just looked at Lauren, still mad that she interfered but kind of grateful because she broke the ice for them and made it easier for her.
"Hey. Yeah, I'm okay, thanks. What are y'all doin'?" Her voice was timid as she took a seat on the big couch by herself.
"Uhm, actually we was just 'bouta head off. But we poppin' 'round tomorrow kay?" She smiled tiredly and nodded before making eye contact with Safaree, he knew what she was asking even though she didn't open her mouth.
"I'm not goin' anywhere." As soon as he said that her shoulders relaxed. After saying goodbye to Candi and Lauren it was just them again.
"Thanks, y'know? For not leavin'?"
"Nic I live here, with you, and I wouldn't leave anyway. I meant every word I said upstairs too." She looked him dead in the eye and took that moment to really observe him, he looked serious and like he really did mean what he said. Truthfully that whole time he had been in florida she had been through the angry stage and was done with it. But seeing him again ignited some of that anger, however she managed to extinguish it easily. She had been awake upstairs for ages, thinking everything through and she knew what she wanted. She'd wanted it all along but never acknowledged the desire.
"I know. I'm sorry for shuttin' you out earlier, there's just so much shit goin' on." He took a seat next to her and was surprised when she moved up to him and rested on his side. "I love you too." Those four words she whispered caught him completely off guard.
"You're not just sayin' that?" She giggled slightly at him second guessing her feelings for him, that wasn't his fault though.
"No I'm not, Safaree I love you. I always have." She gently intertwined her fingers with his farthest away hand as he put the other around her an pulled them to lay back on the couch before speaking up again.
"I know it's gon' take a while to get back to the way we were but we'll get there."
"Promise?" He looked down at her worried face and realised how hard this must have been for her. To open up like that, being as vulnerable as she was right now and she still did it, for him.
"On my life." he kissed the top of her head and placed their joined hands on her bump. "So, talk to me. What's goin' on in here?" She smiled and placed her free hand on her stomach too.
"Don't play, you already know. Lauren told you right?" He scrunched his mouth up guiltily.
"Yeaah, kinda...But all she said was that you were havin' twins and you're six months." He shrugged. "Boys? Girls?...Both?" He twisted his head awkwardly to look down at her as she sank into him even further being that she was relaxing more and more by the minute.
"A boy and a girl." His face lit up, not only at the fact that he might soon be a parent to twins but at the smile she had on her face with her dimples exposed. He missed that so much while he was away and he was glad to be back, for good. "So, you're fine with all this? I mean, they could be Drake's too."
"I know. And yes, I'll love them whether they're mine or not."
"They'll always be yours anyway." They stayed silent and stared at one another before he took the initiative and leaned in, kissing her passionately. She accepted and returned the amount of love being put into that one action.
***
The news had just come to him in his gloomy pit of an apartment. Someone had kindly let him know and he was going to do whatever it took to get her back. Her and his potential kids...
*Damn I swear Im working my ass off here lmao!! I've updated two in one night...might even make it three or four! :)) Well sorry for any typos and Thanku all sooooo much for the comments left, I really appreciate them <3 Welp, hope this was okay for you all ://*
"Safaree? You're....Back." She sounded both shocked and scared.
"Yeah looks that way huh?" He set his bags down in the hallway as he just continued to stare at her, for some reason it felt really awkward and she must have felt the same because she kept looking down and fidgeting. "So. How you been?" He didn't mean for to sound as plain as it did, it kind of came across that he didn't really care. She wrinkled her brow and shook her head a little.
"Just fine. Thank you. How 'bout yourself?" She returned the same feeling of uncomfortableness causing him to sigh.
"Nic, I ain't mean for it to come out like that and you know it."
"Oh? Do I?! I mean, when was the last time you freaking called or-" He jumped forward angrily.
"Don't fucking start with all that! Forreal? You never bothered to keep in touch either! Hell, you couldn't even be bothered to show up to our goodbye dinner! The fuck is up with that Nicki?!" He kept his eyes fixed on hers as his nostrils flared.
"Ugh." She curled her lip. "I can't believe you." She turned to walk away but he grabbed her wrist and in that moment memories of Drake came flooding back. All she could see was his angry face. "Stop! Let the fuck go of me!" He loosened his grip seeing the absolute terror on her face, she was desperately fighting the tears as her body shook uncontrollably. Out of instinct reaction, both of her hands had gone immediately to her bump as she held herself protectively. His eyes gravitated down to where they rested.
"Nic, are you-" The confusion was written all over his face and clearly evident in his wobbly voice.
"Pregnant? Yes, yes I am! So get the fuck outta here doin' shit like that!" She let the tears roll down her face as he tried to step closer to her. "I mean it Safaree! Don't!" Hearing all the commotion outside Lauren came running through to find Nicki in a state, Safaree was out of her view at that point.
"Nicki?! What's happened? Is it the babies?" She gently guided her to the bottom step on the stairs. "Here sit down, I'll go get you a drink." She'd noticed her shaking and remembered that her Midwife had said to give her a sugary drink if this happened. As she turned she came face to face with Safaree, he looked in shock too as he was still staring down at Nicki who was trying to regulate her breathing, which had just become unexplainably erratic. "Oh my God! SB? When did you get here?" she smiled as she hugged him but then frowned realising that Nicki's mini panic attack must have been something to do with him, she pulled away slowly. "S'goin on?" She looked between the two of them, both stayed silent until Nicki tearfully spoke up.
"Nothin', I'm just...I'm gon' go have a lie down for a bit." She stood herself up slowly and grabbed a blanket from the clean washing pile at the bottom of the stairs, wrapping it around herself as she ascended the stairs carefully. Lauren was totally confused and a little angry too.
"The fuck you gone and done to her?"
"Me?!" He motioned to himself. "I ain't do shit! I come here to find her fucking pregnant and she ain't even told me!" He rubbed his face angrily.
"Don't act dumb. She told you over the phone that they could be your babies, and you're the one who couldn't give two shits! Everythin' that nigga put her though and you couldn't even call to see how she was? Nah, you can leave for that." Attempting to show him to the door he stopped her.
"Wait 'Babies' as in, more than one?" He looked puzzled and then he threw another question at her. "And Drake? What did he do to her?" His face had gone from angry to one hundred percent worried.
"You know she's having twi-" Lauren stopped as she looked down shaking her head. "She didn't call you did she?"
"No."
"Imma kill her. I should have guessed!" She walked through to the lounge room with him following as they took a seat. "Ion wanna be meddlin' in your business but she ain't helpin' none. Nic's pregnant with twins." She watched his face drain of colour before continuing. "They could be yours, or Drake's."
"You still ain't told me what he did to her?" Lauren cringed, this really had nothing to do with her but for Nick's sake and the babies, all of this needed to be sorted out. Now.
"I told her to go to the police but she wouldn't. She didn't want Young Money to come out of it badly which I said prolly wouldn't happen. It was Drake's doin', not like anyone else was involved."
"Can you just tell me?"
Lauren breathed in and out slowly before talking calmly and quietly. "He started drinkin', a lot and things got heated. He was hittin' her, hurtin' her and..." She trailed off as she grew angry just thinking about it. Safaree already knew what came next though. He remembered all the marks he saw on her thighs that night. Why didn't he say anything? Or do anything? Instead he dismissed the obvious and left her. He felt sick and Lauren could see the rage in his eyes. "You can't do anything though SB! Promise me? That shit's in the past and Nic definitely doesn't need any more of it rakin' up. Look how she gets." Her eyes widened waiting for him to respond but he was still deep in thought about anyone laying a hand on her like that. "And besides nobody seen or heard anything from the slimy bastard since he was discharged from the rehab centre."
"I can't believe I just left her. I just lay it on her and made her feel bad for not carin' and sayin' goodbye when all the time that asshole was prolly beatin' the shit outta her." Lauren grimaced just thinking about it.
"He was playin' games with her, made her think he loved her. Tricked her into thinkin' it was all in her fuckin' head! He's sick, mentally." Safaree stood up and paced slowly.
"You think you could give us some time, alone?" She looked unsure but knew he wouldn't do anything to hurt her.
"Sure, Candi's comin' over soon so I'll just meet her out front and come back later." She stood up to go get some proper clothes on. "Oh and SB?" He looked up instantly. "Don't get her worked up, please? She's already been warned about that, it isn't good for any of them for her to be like that." She folded her lips sympathetically as she walked out of the room.
***
Once Lauren and Candi were gone Safaree made Nicki a hot drink and made his way upstairs, it was silent so he figured she was sleeping. Entering quietly he saw he curled up on her side, facing away from him. He felt so guilty about everything and he knew it was going to be a task to fix all of this but he would start by apologising. He set the drink down on her nightstand and kneeled by the side of the bed, looking over her she still looked as good as always, and now with her being pregnant she looked as though she was glowing. He traced his fingers gently along the length of her hand, both of which were securely wrapped across her bump, he couldn't believe she was having twins and they were possibly his. When Lauren told him he didn't know quite how to react, it was going to take a lot of adjusting to but he was more than prepared to be there for the woman he loved and his possible kids. Without warning her eyes shot open at his touch and she jumped back barely suppressing a scream as she clutched her chest.
"Shit! You scared me." She relaxed and flopped back down breathlessly as he stood up, noticing his hand was touching hers she pulled away from him.
"Sorry, I didn't mean to."
"S'fine." She sighed. "What do you want SB?" She had moved her eyes back to facing nothing in front of her prompting him to get in her line of vision and catch her attention.
"You." He held his position as he watched her eyes trace his body all the way up to his eyes.
"After everythin' you just said downstairs? You still 'want' me?"
"Nic, I never stopped wantin' you, can't you see that?" He furrowed his brow slightly as he once again crouched to her level so he could look into her face properly.
"Oh yeah? And what about that woman that answered the phone when I called you?" She looked down, trying to avoid his gaze. Her nose sounded stuffy letting him know that she had obviously been crying up here for a while.
"What?...Wait, when did you call?" He tried to grab her hand again, this time she let him as she swiped a tear with the other.
"I called you on Lauren's phone, some girl answered and then you came started talkin' and I hung up."
"That was you? Why did you hang up?" He pushed her hand a little and she instantly knew what he was doing as she moved back further into the centre of the bed to make room for him. He lay so that they were how they usually settled, face to face with close proximity. Just like that he made her feel so safe and secure, like she hadn't felt in a long time.
"'Cause I couldn't believe how fast you moved on an-"
"Nic, that was my assistant, Lainey." He tightened his grip on her hand as she looked down embarrassed.
"Oh."
"She was the one who told me to come back."
"Wait, she had to tell you to come back?" Her face twisted up angrily.
"No! No, not like that! She talked some sense into me, made me realise I was actin' dumb and then when I heard 'bout the big ol' wedding bein' cancelled I booked a flight as soon as." He paused before continuing. "I missed you, and I'm sorry I left you. 'Specially with everythin' that was goin' on." Bad move, as soon as he said that she snatched her hand away from him.
"The fuck do you know 'bout any of that?" He shut his eyes regretfully, he really put his foot in it now.
"Nic, she was worried 'bout you! She had to tell me." She scoffed as she sat up to get off the bed.
"Lauren told you? What else did she go and yak 'bout?" She marched off to her bathroom as best she could given her pregnant state.
"Don't be like that! She's tryin' to help Nicki. Look at me!" She stopped dead in her tracks as she felt him nearing towards her. Honestly she just wanted to turn around and be in his arms but she didn't want to just give in that easily, it wasn't in her nature. "Nicki, please?" His warm hand on her shoulder sent tingles through her body and she turned to look at him with tears, once again, balancing on her bottom lid.
"How do I know you're not just gon' do what you did before?" His head dropped.
"That was years ago, we were kids Nicki. What do I have to do to prove myself to you?!" He was getting heated now, he didn't know what she wanted from him. He told her all the time that she was his world, she meant everything to him but she never seemed to buy it and just treated their relationship as a beneficial one, sex with no strings attached. Of course that was a front and he had no clue she was feeling the same way inside. Experiencing slight guilt she grabbed his hand tenderly.
"Ion want you to prove anythin'. I just...." She dazed off. "Ion know anymore." Wiping her face she let go of him and went into the bathroom, he didn't believe what she was saying and followed her.
"Obviously that isn't true though, is it Onika? I love you and I would do anythin' to prove that to you! Please?"
"Can you just stop? I can't hear this right now, Ion even know what to think anymore Safaree, everything in here.." She pointed to he own head. "..Is just such a fucking mess!" She finished her sentence with a huge cry as more followed, increasing the frequency of her sobs. Not thinking twice her pulled he as close to his own body as he could, she stayed rigid for a while but soon melted into him. He wasn't sure why she was going into the bathroom in the first place but he decided to take her back out to the bed.
Hours passed and they were still laying there in silence, she'd fallen asleep again but he was wide awake with all the thoughts swirling in his mind. Hopefully that was it, he'd got through to her but he knew it was going to be a really, really long road back to where they were all those years ago as kids but he had to really fight to show her that he was here to stay, this time. He looked down feeling her stir a little, gently pushing her off of him he pulled a blanket over her tiny frame and drew her curtains before turning her light off and going back downstairs. It was almost 7pm and he needed to let Lauren know everything was ok, she was probably sat at home on the edge of her seat worrying. He texted her asking her to come over, he need to talk to her about everything.
***
"So he's vanished? Just like that?" He looked over at Lauren and Candi as they just nodded.
"Nobody heard anything from him, hopefully he in his rightful place. Dead in a ditch someplace nobody will find him." Candi snapped as she took another sip from her drink.
"Well he's gone, that's the main thing right?" Safaree and Candi nodded in agreement with what Lauren was saying. "How's Nic?"
"She's ok, she's still sleepin' though."
"Mmm I keep forgettin' she's like, six months pregnant!" Candi laughed lightly, making the conversation a little less depressing.
"That's how far she is?" He asked with raised brows.
"Oh, yeah, sorry I forgot to mention that. I assumed she would say somethin'."
He shook his head. "Nah, it's good. We didn't really get to speak 'bout that. I'll wait 'til tomorrow, I think she's done with it all today." He sighed and stood up double taking at the lounge room doorway as Nicki walked in slowly only to be greeted by Lauren's high pitched voice.
"Hey sleepy head, how ya feelin'?" She just looked at Lauren, still mad that she interfered but kind of grateful because she broke the ice for them and made it easier for her.
"Hey. Yeah, I'm okay, thanks. What are y'all doin'?" Her voice was timid as she took a seat on the big couch by herself.
"Uhm, actually we was just 'bouta head off. But we poppin' 'round tomorrow kay?" She smiled tiredly and nodded before making eye contact with Safaree, he knew what she was asking even though she didn't open her mouth.
"I'm not goin' anywhere." As soon as he said that her shoulders relaxed. After saying goodbye to Candi and Lauren it was just them again.
"Thanks, y'know? For not leavin'?"
"Nic I live here, with you, and I wouldn't leave anyway. I meant every word I said upstairs too." She looked him dead in the eye and took that moment to really observe him, he looked serious and like he really did mean what he said. Truthfully that whole time he had been in florida she had been through the angry stage and was done with it. But seeing him again ignited some of that anger, however she managed to extinguish it easily. She had been awake upstairs for ages, thinking everything through and she knew what she wanted. She'd wanted it all along but never acknowledged the desire.
"I know. I'm sorry for shuttin' you out earlier, there's just so much shit goin' on." He took a seat next to her and was surprised when she moved up to him and rested on his side. "I love you too." Those four words she whispered caught him completely off guard.
"You're not just sayin' that?" She giggled slightly at him second guessing her feelings for him, that wasn't his fault though.
"No I'm not, Safaree I love you. I always have." She gently intertwined her fingers with his farthest away hand as he put the other around her an pulled them to lay back on the couch before speaking up again.
"I know it's gon' take a while to get back to the way we were but we'll get there."
"Promise?" He looked down at her worried face and realised how hard this must have been for her. To open up like that, being as vulnerable as she was right now and she still did it, for him.
"On my life." he kissed the top of her head and placed their joined hands on her bump. "So, talk to me. What's goin' on in here?" She smiled and placed her free hand on her stomach too.
"Don't play, you already know. Lauren told you right?" He scrunched his mouth up guiltily.
"Yeaah, kinda...But all she said was that you were havin' twins and you're six months." He shrugged. "Boys? Girls?...Both?" He twisted his head awkwardly to look down at her as she sank into him even further being that she was relaxing more and more by the minute.
"A boy and a girl." His face lit up, not only at the fact that he might soon be a parent to twins but at the smile she had on her face with her dimples exposed. He missed that so much while he was away and he was glad to be back, for good. "So, you're fine with all this? I mean, they could be Drake's too."
"I know. And yes, I'll love them whether they're mine or not."
"They'll always be yours anyway." They stayed silent and stared at one another before he took the initiative and leaned in, kissing her passionately. She accepted and returned the amount of love being put into that one action.
***
The news had just come to him in his gloomy pit of an apartment. Someone had kindly let him know and he was going to do whatever it took to get her back. Her and his potential kids...
*Damn I swear Im working my ass off here lmao!! I've updated two in one night...might even make it three or four! :)) Well sorry for any typos and Thanku all sooooo much for the comments left, I really appreciate them <3 Welp, hope this was okay for you all ://*
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